My old girl Fancy , 10 year old Gordon Setter was off her food yesterday , and vomited once . I took her to the vet today , fully expecting to get something for her tummy and a refill on her deramaxx . But when they took her temp , she was running a 105 fever , and he palpated her abdomen , and found a tennis ball sized mass .
X rays showed a tumor , with her bowels wrapped around it . She had X rays done on New Year’s Eve , and there was nothing there , so it was fast growing , very aggressive . He said she most likely wouldn’t have survived surgery
My baby girl went off to join my others already waiting for me at the Rainbow Bridge . I held her in my arms and told her how much I love her as she was euthanized .
Damn this is hard .
I never , ever expected to come home without her . I feel so lost . For 10 years , she has been my best friend , my partner in crime . We did the dog show thing together , we traveled together , we hung out on the couch eating popcorn together . She helped me raise all the dogs that came after her .
Fancy never met a living soul she did not love . Even today , in the waiting room , in pain as she was , she considered it her duty to greet everyone . There was a little 3 year old girl that kept coming across the room to give her hugs , which Fancy relished . She nuzzled 2 tiny kittens through their crate . Fancy loved everyone equally .
I am empty , I am heartsick . She was my Special Girl . When she was diagnosed with vitalago at age 3 , causing her to get odd , swirled white hair on her face , my vet’s explanation was that she ‘was the Setter so sweet God sprinkled her with sugar’ . He didn’t get to say good-bye to her , he was on vacation this week , so one of the other vets there had to do it . Doc will miss her too , she was his favorite of my dogs .
I love you Fancy . Mama misses you already .
Junior the Wonderdog often pops up in mine and I take great comfort in his return to painfree joy.