I can’t sleep tonight. -.-
While drifting off–I went into a sudden fit of anxiety. I used to have them more when I was younger–but it’s been awhile since I last had one.
It’s about a fear of death, mostly. I mean…none of us -wants- to have to die…but it’s so…-inescapable-. So -inevitable-. And so -irreversable-.
In a world where we try so hard to live–and to continue to live–where there are so many beautiful things and nice people–it just seems so unfair, doesn’t it?
My right hand is dinged up pretty badly. Not having any way to dispense of the energy the anxiety brought on–I worked some of it out physically by literally pounding the floor with my bare knuckles. I’m actually amazed I didn’t break anything in there.
How do I deal with the anxiety? How do any of you actually get around to -living- comfortably when we are all doomed to share the same fate whether good or evil?