I just finally got around to sewing a 50 Miler patch onto my computer backpack; I’ve had it sitting around for awhile now. It wasn’t issued to me by the Boy Scouts.
When I was an Eagle, my Scoutmaster called me aside and spoke to me in private. “I’m going to honor these merit badges and you’ll receive your bronze palm, but these are the last merit badges I’m going to recognize if you persist in going off on your own to get them. Merit badges should be earned as a group activity. You should be earning the same ones as the other scouts in the troop.”
So I’m looking at him like WTF?!? I went out of my own initiative, sought out the approved merit badge counselors or whatever they were called and did the tasks or learned the material… and somehow this was a bad thing? I thought the way he preferred our troop to do things was a bad idea, to run all the scouts through a merit badge factory, spoon-feeding everyone the accomplishments and answers one step at a time and then everyone has the same badges. But he was seriously into this team-building thing and wanting all the Boy Scout experiences to bring us together.
Then he said there was other stuff he was unhappy about: “I know the kind of people you spend your time with. Boy Scouts is no place for people who use illegal drugs. I don’t want you bringing any of that element into my troop.”
Which I didn’t, I never brought marijuana to any scout function. But I could sort of see his point, if that’s what was actually bothering him. I knew I wasn’t a vector for introducing the younger scouts to pot smoking but he couldn’t know that with any confidence. (The truth of the matter was that about half the high-school aged Scouts smoked pot and more than a few of the junior-high aged ones as well)
But he went on. The marijuana was not the only thing bothering him either. “What was that, with your Mile Swim, what kind of nonsense is that? You should be doing Mile Swim with the troop, when we got to it, and what did you do instead? You went to your mommy! What is this, Cub Scouts? Boy Scouts have no business going to their mothers to get certified for badges and awards. And while I’m at it, what were you thinking on that camping trip, cooking that, what was it, cheese fondue? That is not appropriate food for boys to eat on a camping trip. That is not Boy Scout food! You may think this is all some kind of game and you can just do as you want, but Scouting plays a role in helping boys grow up to be men. Frankly, I don’t think you belong here.”
I’m not saying this was completely and totally an Example A of “Boy Scouts kick out an Eagle Scout for reasons of homophobia”, but there were definitely overtones of it. It might more fairly be characterized as “A Scoutmaster kicks out Eagle Scout for not being a ‘regular’ boy and for being individualistic instead of fitting right in”.
Decades later I walked 50 miles in a day, mostly to have the bragging rights of being able to say that I walked 50 miles in a day, but prompted by having come close to it once before sort of by accident and realizing that I probably could if I set out to.
Obtaining the 50 Miler patch via backchannel means and sewing it on is a mixed-bag statement: it’s me reclaiming my scouting legacy from the dust into which this clown of a Scoutmaster cast it so long ago, and within that is both pride and rebellion.