I’ve had a baby face all my life, and until recently it was neither a positive nor a negative. Now that I’m in my early 40s, though, it seems to be an annoyance in nearly every aspect of my life.
Work: Most people think I’m in my late 20s, which means that when they meet me in a professional setting they assume I don’t have much experience. I’m mature enough to let my knowledge and competence speak for themselves, but because I don’t look like a “grownup” I repeatedly have to prove myself and establish that I know what I’m talking about – and that, no, I’m not an administrative assistant (not that there’s anything wrong with that). Don’t get me wrong, I’m happy with my career and I wouldn’t say that my appearance has held me back, but being a woman in my industry can be hard enough: looking young on top of that is definitely not an advantage.
Relationships: When I meet someone, I always have to wonder whether it will matter when he finds out how old I am (because sometimes it does). And on the other hand, some guys don’t give me a second thought because they assume that I’m too young for them…which particularly stings because I tend to prefer men who are 5-10 years older than me. (This is one area where online dating has an advantage: ages are disclosed up front!)
Music: I’m a working jazz singer, and the disadvantages here are similar to the “Work” ones. Also, I feel kind of guilty whenever some established local legend – or even an older audience member – says something like, “It’s wonderful to see someone so young doing this!” I don’t want to encourage a misconception, but I also don’t necessarily want to go through the “I’m actually 41” song and dance (in the grand scheme of things 41 is young, but it’s always clear that they think I’m much younger). It really does happen quite frequently.
Basically, I can’t think of a single benefit to looking the way I do. And every time another woman – because it’s always a woman – tells me that she wishes she had my “problem,” I have to stifle the urge to ask her what advantage she thinks it would give her. I also tired of hearing how much I’ll appreciate it when I’m 50-60: frankly, I don’t see how things will be any different then.
Can any baby-faced Dopers in their 50s-60s assure me that I will appreciate it someday? Am I simply too focused on the frustrations? Are there advantages to my baby face that I’m overlooking?