I’m trying to figure out which gods I’ve pissed off.
Little stuff: printer dies, so I have to go to the doctor’s office to fill in paperwork. The dog is still afraid the kennel will eat her. And, when I took her with me to Panera and ate breakfast on the patio and struck up a conversation with a lovely couple with a dalmation, the dalmation marked me as his territory by peeing on my leg.
Okay, well, things happen. It was actually kind of funny, and the husband went inside for a cup of water to rinse off the pee. What didn’t occur to me was that on taking my dog to the park after that really just meant that every male dog there stared at my right foot, and one of them managed to squeeze a couple of drops out before I noticed him.
Oh, and Dad got jealous when he heard me and Mom talking upstairs and came up, interrupting our viewing of Battlestar Galactica so he could get some socialization. Instead of sitting down and joining in the viewing (I gave up my seat to him), he started cracking wise. Then he got all butt hurt when Mom and I mostly ignored him.
Big things: probably the stress of the upcoming mammogram/ultrasound, but I’m starting to get that hypersomnia/exhaustion thing going again. And, I sat down and got ahold of the CalSTRS system to verify when I’d be getting my cash from my refund.
The numbers don’t add up. So, I go looking for the documents I’d read back in July which gave me a balance of $10K. Can’t find them. Not in the filing cabinet upstairs. Not in the filing cabinet downstairs. Not in my mail cubby. Not in the piles of documents on my desk. I cannot find it. I can’t get online CalSTRs to admit that I ever had a balance of $10K. I discover that I had cashed out my retirement back in 2004, when I moved to Dallas, before they changed the rules and verified that I’d deposited that amount to my checking account at the same time - which I don’t remember at all, but know is totally logical.
So, most likely, the paperwork I had in July has softly and silently vanished away, I read it wrong to begin with, and instead of being able to use the $10K to pay bills for the next six months, finish the dental work I need, maybe pay for possible upcoming health bills, and even buy Christmas presents. Now? I can expect a check for $155. Before taxes.
Fuck.