Thanks Beck. I suspect you’re one of those people who helps a lot of people without knowing it. Today you helped me.
Beck’s life is fascinating even when it’s mundane.
I feel like I should be jealous, but then I realize that I like that my own boring life is OK for me, and that experiencing Beck’s interesting life vicariously is enough for me to be satisfied.
Is this thread genuine ? I see no badbadbadness in the title !
The bad bad bad is inside me
You see?
( ^skeptical face)
Let me tell you a little story.
This happened Monday.
I had dialysis. It went pretty ok. Little crampy.
Had Tacobell after. That went well except Ivy fussed. She has a notion she’s gonna break me of my cheap Taco habit. Hah!
We had to go to her house after. Her water was disconnected. She just had to call. I warned her, but she insisted. Apparently they removed her meter for non-function. Well she’s not there. No water being used. That took an extremely long time for a water office pion to get there. Check things and tell her it would take ‘no telling how long’ to replace after she set up a vacation account. Gah!!
So we finally get on the road home. She droned on and on about city water utilities.
Til…
We ran up on a log truck that had toppled over. Logs allover the highway. It took an exorbitant amount of time for the idiots to skid the logs to the edge of the road. I thought I was gonna have brandish a gun to make them move faster. Finally, FINALLY they had one lane open.
I told Ivy get up there and go!! Of course she was very slow about it.
I swear I’m gonna fire her. Any day now.
I finally got home. There was snake excitement going on. The dogs were barking at a big black snake on the yard. Son-of-a-wrek took care of it. But mid-Dau then wouldn’t let the grandwrex out after their lessons. So my nap was not successful.
Does this convince you it’s really me, beck? That was a day in the life.
They’re not always THAT bad. Usually they’re worse.
Poor Ivy with her home issues, even when she’s not there.
Poor you having to eat Taco Bell and taking naps. That’s just rough.
yourself Beck. 
I know, right?
Yes !
Here, have a good old English {{{{Beck}}}} from acrooss the pond.
I haven’t been around much lately. Mr VOW and I finally made it to AZ for some very necessary “just us” time. And GAWD we do so 
this place!
We want to get stuff DONE this trip, and the banshees/poltergeists/ kokopellis are fighting us tooth and nail every step of the way. But at least we’re HERE.
I really do get so tired of beating my head against all the walls that pop up in front of me, no matter which way I turn. Health issues remind us both that we aren’t in our twenties any more (DAMMIT!). But when we reach the point of absolute aggravation, both of us just stop everything to look out the windows, and are glad we are here!
We’ve got about two weeks’ left of this trip. I’m trying to soak up as much serenity as I can!
I understand the dichotomies of Life that our precious Beck expressed in her OP. Beck, Sweetheart, don’t let the bad stuff pull you under! Rise above it, stomp over it, and wend a new pathway that will have only good things for you to enjoy!
Love you, Beck!
~VOW
Nice to see you @VOW .
Glad you’re home. Enjoy it.
I’m trying to spend less time on social media, particularly Reddit where I’ve become addicted to other people’s drama when I’m not ruminating about my own. It’s been a week. The main thing I’ve noticed is I’m able to see nuance about myself and my life a bit better. It’s not all one thing and I’m learning to be more comfortable with it. I’m also getting better at self-validation. A lot of things have come my way that I didn’t anticipate. I try to leave room for both grief and joy. And just stillness. Just gentle observation. This is what is. What is “I” anyway but a collection of assumptions? I’m being forced to adapt so quickly I’m not entirely sure how I would describe myself anymore. I could be a different person tomorrow.
Just some thoughts.
Thx, Spice.
I tend to think the world revolves around me. It’s a failing. I’m working on it🤭
Shit happens.
Then as soon as I re-adapt I have a new thing. So it’s hard.
Life is a walk to non-life.
So we have to live it and keep moving.
Life is going to force us to keep trying to learn it, especially after we think we know something and then what we think we know gets washed away, leaving us struggling for a toehold again. It’s slippery stuff.
I’ll try to hang in there if you will.
I know, right?! What is up with that?