Buddhism feels like a chain for me

[Machinaforce]

@kenobi_65

I have no idea where you live, or if you have already looked into it, but there may be free (or low cost) counseling services available through your school (if you’re in school), your employer, or your local hospital or health department.

Regardless, the amount of angst and obsession you display on these topics (and have for a long while) certainly suggests that you are in need of something beyond conversations with people on a message board.

Thing is that the guy I usually see (like over 4 years) I can’t afford, and I’m not sure about starting from square 1. Last time I talked to one I could afford he was pretty bad.