I have agoraphobia and a way too strong reaction to the sight of blood, I think it’s called vasovagal response, in ancient history some people had that and basically that response tells your body to black out (lose consciousness) when you see blood, as this would have acted as a defense mechanism and saved you from ancient animals or whatever, basically your body’s version of “act dead”.
Obviously there’s no more wild animals hunting people and no reason for this, but a percent of people still have a strong reaction to blood and lose consciousness, like me for example. While I was still in high school some 4 years ago, I saw blood and lost consciousness once (and woke up to 30-ish students staring at me) and the second time, which was just a few days later, we had a medical lesson of some sort and the professor was telling a disgusting blood related story and I fell out again, even though I didn’t physically see blood, but just imagined it…and once again, I was surrounded by dozens of students when I woke up a few moments later.
Since then I have agoraphobia, which is an irrational subconscious fear of large groups of people, I connected blacking out with large groups of people and now I get a slight panic attack every time I get in a situation where there’s a lot of people around me, I don’t have a real attack like epilepsy or something, but instead an “internal” one, my blood pressure starts falling low really quick, then that scares me even more and I start breathing really quickly and I risk maybe really blacking out again, even though it didn’t happen even once since 4 years ago, but I have these panic attacks every month or two, sometimes even more frequent, mostly when I’m in a supermarket, public transport,etc.
So, if I repeat to myself that nothing bad will happen and that I should just calm down, will that eventually help me beat agoraphobia? Or maybe even the blood fear later on?
There’s some additional things I really need to change about my life, I’m really lazy and non-productive for example and perhaps subconsciousness has a lot to do with that as well.