I got my period normally now, so I’m not all that worried about it, but I’d like to know if I should be or should have been.
I was in San Francisco with J from Oct. 14-20. (Yaoi-con or bust, baby!) I’m on the pill, and we always use condoms (and rarely sleep together anyway; we’re kind of… complicated…) So anyway, we have this pitiful bout of awful, awkward, unsatisfying, dysfunctional sex Tuesday night. Traumatizing, man. But we won’t go into that. Anyway, normal precautions taken, but nothing’s perfect, you know?
So Sunday, on the plane ride home, I’m… not myself. Very emotional. Like crying-for-no-reason emotional - every hour or two, totally bipolar, like nothing that’s ever happened to me before. It seemed like it had to be some sort of physical thing in some way - hormonal, I guess. But like I said, I’m on the pill, thoroughly regulated, not due for my period, and anyway I’ve never really been all that much affected by my hormones to start with. It was very strange. And think of poor J. “What’s wrong?” “Nothing.” “You’re crying.” “It isn’t you. I don’t know what’s the matter with me.” <long silence> Hell, I wouldn’t have really believed me either.
So I wouldn’t really have thought much of it, except that I continued to be kind of… high strung throughout the week. (J: “Is it dinner? Are you upset about dinner?” “No! Stop looking at me like that!”)
And then, the next Sunday or so, total middle of my pink pills, I start to get oddly sharp cramps. I mean, they were obviously like menstrual cramps, except you know how menstrual cramps are kind of dull and sharp at the same time? These were less dull and more sharp. And then on Monday, I get heavy breakthrough bleeding, very, you know, dark and clotted, just for a day (rather, it was just heavy for a day - trickled off into light bleeding). Something that could happen to anybody - and it’s true that I’d just started trying skipping my green pills and just staying on the pills continuously. So my body may not have adjusted, and it’s not like some women don’t get breakthrough bleeding or spotting… but I never have.
So come Wednesday, I get nervous enough about it to stop taking my pink pills and have a normal period, just to make sure I do have a normal period. And I did. Just like always on the pill, same volume, very normal. Just finished today.
So my question is: could I have been pregnant? Would the hormonal changes have affected me that early? I wouldn’t really have remarked on it at all but I was behaving so bizarrely, felt very out of control. Totally unlike me. If I did (or might have) had a miscarriage, should I see a doctor? I mean, everything seems normal now. Suggestions?
And I’d like to mention that it’s amazingly obnoxious for a coworker to wander back and forth behind me reading over my shoulder when she has no real reason to be there. And humming. At least the humming is an early warning sign, I guess, but please. Bad enough she’s all touch-touch and has smelly feet.
So