Cristi, I am just the opposite of you in that I’m taking it to quit smoking and it’s icing on the cake to me that it’s helping to combat my depression. It’s weird though, because it doesn’t seem to be consistent. Several days this past week I’ve felt truly great, euphoric even, without struggling to make myself feel that way. But one night (I think Wednesday) and all day today I’ve been having anxiety attacks and feeling listless, scared and tearful again. It’s starting to make me think I should be under a doctor’s care with this stuff.
techchick, it’s wonderful to see you back here again! I sure hope the Wellbutrin helps you with your depression. Are you a smoker, too?
pipefitter, you are an inspiration to me in that you could do it on your own with no drugs, patches, etc. Congratulations! I hope some day to be able to post here that I’ve been smoke free for nearly 3 months and counting.
aha, it is so great to have you cheering me from the sidelines. I really will need all the support I can get because nothing else has worked so far. Rewarding myself with sex would be awesome - but I don’t have anyone to do it with.
Ah, well, the reward will be that if I’m a non-smoker, maybe I’ll get to have sex sooner, as there will be more men interested once I don’t stink like a smokestack!
purplebear, you are so incredibly sweet and kind. You have already helped tremedously by replying with your support and prayers here. I was seriously thinking of scrapping the whole idea until I came back and read this thread and saw that there will be people out there pulling for me. And you can count on the fact that I’ll need to vent - a lot - so the offer of a friendly shoulder to cry on is much appreciated. Thank you!
casdave, you’re right about the first 2 weeks being the battle against the physical addiction. And that’s the part that terrifies me. The behavioural part is pretty easy for me, as I’ve had to adjust to not smoking in all kinds of places and situations (particularly with the no-smoking laws in California) and have adjusted without a problem. I haven’t craved a cigarette in a restaurant in ages, and my friends were shocked when I chose the non-smoking section when I was home visiting this past week where smoking is still allowed.
It’s the physical withdrawal that gets me every time. I get light-headed, disoriented, angry, short-tempered, frustrated, I get the shakes and I can’t sit still for 5 seconds. Makes me wish I could afford to spend a week at a rehab clinic just to get over that part. That’s why I was hoping that the Zyban would help take the edge off, as so many people have said it does.
Thanks again everyone, for all of your encouragement. I think it’s really going to help.