I know it’s been done in other threads, but a quick search offers nothing in the Pit. And I have to rant. I have a personal beef with this fuck now.
For almost 30 years I never was able to function as well as “normal” people. I always scored way the fuck off the charts in any testing I did. Starting back in 1st grade.
The reason the additional testing was performed? Everyone was worried I was retarded. I would get basic math questions of 2+2= and answer 823. Little things like that. After extensive academic and psych screening “they” discovered it was boredom with the materials offered. “They” realized I was bored sitting in a class for 7 hours trying to learn stuff that was too simple. (I was reading Dr Seuss books on my own at age 3) How I ever learned to tie my shoes is a mystery to this day. But I digress.
Point is, I’m not slow on the uptake. It was a matter of things taking more than 20 minutes or so to explain. Give me free reign to learn it, I’ll eventually learn it. Structure the lesson? Forget it, I’ll study something else that interested me at the moment.
Fast forward to age 31. I break down and see a doc about this. Straterra is prescribed. (Oh no! A drug) :rolleyes:
Holyfuckingshit! There is a difference I will neverevereverever be able to describe! It’s a whole new world! I never knew this is what “normal” people are able to do, fell like, and function like! Now I know why kids in school that struggled endlessly with material I picked up so easily still did better than me in the long run. They were able to somehow magically retain the info and use it an hour/day/week later.
Alas, I was one of the few that suffered the sife effect of liver malfunction. The stats increased 4 fold. It was quit the drug, or be dead in a few years. I opted for the gamble, the doc refused. (See that you little fuck? The doc was looking out for my health against my wishes.)
So we head on over to Wellbutrin. It has shown the side effect of treating ADD without the stimulant that can affect mood in bipolar disorder. (Did I forget to mention I have that non-existant disease as well?) Doesn’t matter. It didn’t help. (Though it did drastically cut my urge to smoke, so I trust it helps to kick the habit)
Anyway, off to Ritalin. It works. I know it works. I was started on a low dose (5mg twice a day). It fucking worked you pompous douchebag. However I wanted a more consistant level of…uh…prepare yourself…MEDICINE!
So it’s off to Concerta. (This is fucking me up, but I think it’s the method of release. Seperate rant if I get to it) Next is Dexidrine and back to Ritalin for different dosing if that doesn’t work. Either way, I KNOW it works for my brain, and I will choose it over your little collection of books and receipts from Bob’s House of Psychosis or whatever the fuck you people are calling your “church” these days.
And one final plea you self-absorbed fuckstick. PLEASE hook me up with some director that needs a person with limited attention that can pretend to be someone else for a few hours to make enough money to never have to worry about functioning in the real world.
Go ahead and ban me. I hope Tom Cruise dies a most sufferable death. Fuck you Tommy