LOL, I was thinking of Rat King when I read flatlined’s last post!
She’ll be fine. Once you survive Rat King’s lair, you can survive anything 
Depression. It’s not terrible most of the time; I’m up and down. But right now, I’m really down. Completely unmotivated, unable to think, lethargic, and otherwise just kind of miserable. I know I have to ride it out. Except it’s the end of the semester, so I have about eleventy billion things to do. Except my internal monologue is telling me that I’m terrible at it, that I’m just going to fuck everything up, and that I don’t deserve to be in this program (which is tied for the best in the country). Despite the fact that in all my classes so far, I’m getting/have gotten a solid A. I know it’s fucking irrational. And I still can’t stop.
What’s worse is that I know that I have friends I can talk to, though they’re not physically present. But I can’t make myself do it, because I don’t want to look weak. I don’t want them to think I’m weak. Or maybe they’ll understand, and for some reason, sympathy just makes me feel worse.
I hate it. I hate myself. I can’t wait until it’s fucking over.
They’re probably out of ducks, also.
Congressman Dan Burton is holding anti-vax hearings right now.
:rolleyes:
Angel:
Talk to your friends. Please. They might have sympathy for you, but they will feel good about themselves, too. Most people love to help their friends. Not only because they love their friends, but also because (even if they don’t realize it themselves) helping someone else makes them feel a tad more powerful.
No matter how insecure or worthless I feel about myself, it makes me feel better when I can help someone else. Not in an ‘I’m better than you’ way, but more, ‘Wow! Here is something I CAN do’ way.
So let your friends help you. You’ll be helping them, too.
I actually feel better just posting this. So, thank you.
Every time I print at work I am informed 3 times that I just printed. The program tells me. Then the network tells me. Then the printer tells me.
Guess what? I’m the one that pressed the “print” button! I already know that I printed! The stupid notices pop up in the middle of my screen and stay for about 30 seconds each. Changing the notification options doesn’t do a damn thing.
I really wish cancer would stop picking on one of my good friends. She was in agony this weekend. Her poor kids are probably watching their mom die inch by inch.
On a related note: A close friend of my parents has inoperable cancer, and will die of it sooner or later. I’m not going to say I don’t feel bad for him, but the thing is, he has lung cancer and has been a lifelong smoker, so I’m ashamed to admit that I don’t feel as sorry for him as I could. So, I pit myself for being a (somewhat) uncaring (less-caring?) asshole (or whatever the female equivalent of an asshole is - a bitch?)
This family friend has also been helping my mother run away and separate from our family, thus leaving a hole in the family, so that might be part of the problem too.
Christmas is not going to be much fun in my family (or what’s left of it), that’s for sure.
Anyway, I should go back to work on more joyful things, like Christmas cards for Doper kids. 
{{hugs}} My adventures with depression led me to the same kind of place and the biggest mistake I made was keeping it to myself. Your friends and family are there to support you. Don’t shut yourself off. I know it isn’t easy to be honest that way but you need to do it.
One of the people here just asked me to take a look at one of the computers because a message just popped up, something about a program needing to do something or other and could I take a look at it. Now, I haven’t had to say this in a long time, but I used to say this a lot…“If ‘OK’ is your only choice, just click it”
Yeah, Yeah, I know, that can get you into trouble, but this was a standard Windows dialog box from one of our regular programs. It’s popped up a hundred times. Just click ok, you don’t need to call me to look at it.
Also, WRT to telling me something’s printed 3 times (or any variation of that type of thing), for the love of god, don’t steal focus each time to do it.
What are the other two? I’ve found the ones on 96-99.
I want to say, as a resident of Indiana, that I really, really tried to not get the toolbar elected. I’m sorry. 
Not sure. I think I remember one being mentioned way up in the 400’s somewhere. Higher then my radio went.
SiriusXM.com’s channel lineup lists…
96 Laugh USA
97 Blue Collar
98 The FoxxHole
99 Raw Dog
160 Laugh Attack
400 Carlin’s Corner
403 Dirty Dog
403 UCB Radio (Upright Citizens Brigade)
If they mention 6, I’d guess it’s 96,97,98,99,160,403. Could be an old stat. FoxxHole is just kind of all around station. Some comedy, some music, some health. Kind of a like a “Man Show” version of the Oprah station (which, BTW sucks now that she retired from her TV show and just plays reruns all day).
Anyways, last I checked, I can’t get the 400 channels, but I’ll have to check on 160 next time I’m in my car. I remember liking Laugh Attack, I just assumed they got rid of it.
Dear KMart: How 'bout spending a few dollars maintaining your stores, or maybe at least maintaining stock in your stores, instead of spending megabucks advertising every other commercial break with “The lights the lights the [motherfucking] lights”? I would be perfectly happy to shop at K vs. Wal if only anything were ever in stock, or the parking lot weren’t so dark and sketchy. And by all that’s holy, that “Lights” song should be taken out and shot - every single recording of it, the writer, the singer, the studio musicians, and the tech running the sound board during the recording session, along with the advertising person who chose the “song” for your holiday campaign.
On a related note:
Dear Facebook friends: I’ll say happy holidays if I want to, bitches. No one is depriving you of anything by wishing you “happy holidays/[holy days]” instead of “Merry Christmas [Christ’s Mass.]” Have a freaking fabulous Festivus, why don’tcha?
I’ll have to check 160 also. I think my radio only goes up to 284 or something in the upper 200’s.
That’s the stupid thing. Their stores have ALWAYS been dirty and poorly maintained, going back to when I was a kid 40+ years ago. When I worked at the DC @5 years ago and they merged with Sears, I remember that once again cropping up as an issue and them saying they were going to fix it. Obviously they haven’t. (I don’t ever shop there, not that there is one within 6-8 miles of my apartment anyway.)
And now Sears is just as dirty and poorly maintained.
Death is supposed to go like this: your grandparents, your parents, you, THEN your children. That sequence is not supposed to change. Your beautiful, vivacious, fun-loving 19-year-old “niece” is NOT supposed to pass away suddenly in her sleep. My friend should not be burying her daughter this weekend. It’s just not right.
I’m so sorry, Soylent. Do you feel like telling us what happened to her?
Apparently she and her boyfriend were in the basement when the boyfriend fell asleep. He woke up later, looked over at her and she was blue. He ran and got her parents and they did CPR but she was already gone. The autopsy was today so hopefully they’ll get some answers. It’s heartbreaking and tragic.