For the last 3-4 months I have been locked into an incredibly destructive procrastination mode. My normally productive life has become a morass of dishes in the sink, laundry piles on the floor, and unaddressed work requirements.
I am actually slightly less overwhelmed with work than over the previous few years, and the Celtling is more self-sufficient which allows me a bit of “me time” now and again. My home is smaller, and I have no yard to care for, so those chores came off the list as well.
It’s as if, having coming out of constant-emergency mode, I have lost all impetus. If I once sit down in the armchair, I set up like concrete. Often on a Saturday I am shocked to realize I’ve been sitting for four or five hours straight flicking through TV channels and surfing the net. This is utterly unheard of for me. Normally even to watch a two hour movie I’d need to be crocheting or mending, or taking some other productive action in parallel.
Depression? Doesn’t fit. I am enjoying what I always enjoyed, and not sad or irritable. But it’s definitely true that I sometimes sit down to a task and simply can not force my mind to concentrate on it. When I think about a task the day before, I’ll be clear on what needs to be done, but when I sit down to do it it’s like the knowledge leaves me entirely.
I’ve talked to my Dr. and my counselor, and neither thinks medication will help. My counselor is still cogitating on what he thinks is up. (Or he’s just not going to tell me yet. :: roll eyes :: )
Procrastination has always been an issue for me, but now it feels like it’s in control. It’s to the point of missing deadlines rather than just flirting with them.
So what do you think, Dopers? You are not my Doctors, and I don’t intend to take you advice unless I have decided on my own that it is both wise and productive.
What, other than depression might cause this?
What perspectives or thought tangents might help me nail down what’s going on here?
What are your strategies for fighting procrastination?
Thanks for any input you may have!