Ahhh, grasshopper.
So hard to say anything in post form about this stuff. It is better done in poetry, or song.
The application of logic to spiritual reality results in profoundly serious studies, i.e., theology. How many angels can dance on the head of a pin? Why would an angel want to dance on the head of a pin?
The rational mind is the ultimate tool, and it is undeniable. We can harness forces we cannot begin to comprehend, energy beyond imagination. Beyond responsibility. Perhaps, just perhaps, the monkey boys will sail the stars like they once sailed the seas. Only that tool could make it possible. That tool keeps billions of us fed, housed, informed.
But it has its limitations. The spirit senses things that are not things, waves that will not displace the merest physical object. The rational mind is relentlessly definite, certainty is its Holy Grail. The rational mind, attempting to impose certainty, is chasing butterflies with a hammer. You might succeed, why would you want to?
One walks into a holy place, a monastery, a church, a mosque, some place where people have gathered to pray. It is similar to being in a theatre when everyone is gone. There is a sense of being there, it feels an appropriate place for meditation, contemplation, perhaps even prayer. Like an echo that you can’t exactly hear, but you know is there.
Perhaps it is sometimes necessary , sometimes appropriate, to stop thinking itself! The Zen actively promote that approach, hustling koans, devices intended to distract the rational mind with an “endless loop”. Similar to providing a toy for a child while you talk to the grownups.
When the rational mind interferes, it attempts to define prayer/contemplation as a dialogue, a memo to God. By its nature, it attempts to cut fog into cubes.
If there is no God, does that necessarily mean you have no soul? Of course not, it is not given, like a franchise from an Authority, but a fact of existence. It is innocent of certainty, beyond experiment and argumentation.
Evil is when your soul cringes.
And I should shut up about it.