Dear Dopers,
As I sit before my monitor following threads in the great and complex tapestry that is the communal thought of the SDMB, I find myself wondering, given the range of spiritual belief and disbelief professed amongst us, how many of us, regulars and lurkers alike, have found their personal belief or disbelief in spiritual matters changed or changing as a result, direct or indirect, of discussions which have taken place about said matters on this board?
I would like to make it clear that I do not intend this thread to be a debate about belief or disbelief; rather I see it as a thread where believers, agnostics and atheists might witness about changes they have found, or are finding in their own mental, emotional or spiritual polarity concerning these things.
I will say that when I came to SDMB I considered myself an atheist and my knee-jerk response to questions of belief in religion or spirituality was liable to be along the lines of “It’s all crap.” Fortunately, I felt no need to express this vehemently, and it wasn’t long until I realized that I could not be comfortable calling myself an atheist because I had not examined, nor was I able to examine the matter rigorously enough to satisfy my mind that I could know that a transcendence (god, if you will) did not exist. And vice versa.
I now call myself an agnostic; a curious one, and I am drawn, like a dog to fence posts, tree trunks and the doorways of working kitchens, to threads discussing these things. I have referred to my agnosticism as a pendulum, and I think of it as such because I do find myself tending to drift in one direction or the other in an almost cyclical pattern as I consider the many and varied discussions.
I am interested in all changes, from the piddling pendular sort like mine to obvious one-way movement in either direction from agnosticism to those involving a full swing from one pole to a full stop at the opposite pole. Have any of you experienced any of these?
I place this in GD because I anticipate that if participation is forthcoming, it will indeed involve witnessing in one form or another.
Sincerely,
Fatwater Fewl
[jm]