The past several years out of college have been a sequence of false starts for me.
First I worked at a tutoring center part-time in college. I wanted to be a manager there- required a BA. So when I graduated I applied as a manager. Now, this company advertises that they hire only 5% of people that apply for manager, but I honestly thought I would have an advantage because I worked there for three years, and some of the new managers (outside of internships) hadn’t worked a day in their life before being hired. I made it to the third and last interview, then didn’t get the job . It turns out my GPA wasn’t high enough- during the 3rd interview they actually pore over your transcripts and furrow their brow over every C+ they see.
I was really disappointed, but I didn’t let it stop me. Through applying for that job, I found out there was another, better tutoring position that required a BA, and my previous experience made me a perfect candidate. So I applied for that job and got it easily. However, it was still part-time, and I was looking for a full-time job. I decided to keep the job until I found something better (this was 2 years ago, still looking for a full-time job). So I applied for the credential program to work toward being a teacher, another goal of mine. I got a letter saying that I didn’t qualify for the program because my GPA was 0.02 short :smack: of the minimum requirement.
Granted, I probably could’ve taken 1 or 2 classes to pad my GPA and gone through the credential program, but I was impatient, wanted to move out of my parents house and start a career. I started working as a substitute teacher and combined with my tutoring job, had the combined hours of a full-time job minus the benefits or any decent raises.
I started moving in different directions, hoping that if I branched out I would be more likely to land a job with pay/benefits I wanted. I applied for the Coast Guard (once again hoping a BA would be an advantage). Unfortunately, I was medically disqualified because I had taken anti-depressants something like 8 years beforehand :mad:
I could go on and on. Everytime something like this would happen, I would feel really frustrated. Rather than persisting on accomplishing a goal if I failed once, I’d move on and try for something else. I started to feel really frustrated, as I saw other people get hired and settle into jobs so easily. I don’t believe in bad luck, so I really wondered what I was doing wrong- but with each job/goal, it was always something different that held me back, and while the thing was significant (need X.X GPA to get in no ifs, ands, or buts) I would always be so close to missing out. I recently took a test for another job, and unfortunately the biggest thing on my mind while waiting for results was, “I need a 70 to pass this test, so just my luck I’ll get a 68 or 69”.
Has anyone else had this happen? Where you don’t get hired/pass something, but its always by a very narrow margin? How do you cope? I’m worried that right now, my frustration with failing/giving up too easily is interfering with my ability to really land that job I want.