Psilocybin (mushrooms) helped me when I was depressed. It didn’t even make the trip bad at the time, the setting in nature was so beautiful and safe. It can work as a huge a reset, reshaping your outlook on everything and restructuring how you understand connections between everything. It always leaves me with profound compassion for all that is. This beautiful, complex mess. And I am part of all that is, so there is compassion for me and all my perfect flaws.
I once stopped drinking for 6 months after LSD. It’s hard to explain why, I didn’t drink that much, it wasn’t a problem and it didn’t feature in my trip at all. But I just didn’t want alcohol in my body. It’s used for substance abuse with good results and I can absolutely imagine why.
One time we went went to an art installation on acid and as part of the exhibit activity I was elected leader of a group. We were in this trippy room where the chairs had lights in them (this was real, mind you) and I had to lead a discussion and deliver a final verdict to a person in a white coat (again, I swear this was just an art exhibit!) Well that was pretty challenging, lemme tell ya. But I did it! I led a really good discussion, summarised the various positions and worked it into one coherent message that I got everyone to agree on, then presented that to the people in white coats. At the end lots of people came up and said I had been a really good leader and had brought all their varying positions together into one message they could all support. They had no idea I was on acid. It’s honestly one of my proudest moments and I’m quite sad that I can’t mention it on my CV. I think “excellent leadership skills even when on acid” would look great. But I guess not to everyone.
This was on a museum dose, not really the dose you take for hard psychological work. But it was a cool experience. And in a way it’s exemplary of what psychedelics do: they make things more complicated but also, because you are looking at it in a new way, more simple. You aren’t using your usual toolkit for how to deal with situations you know, it’s like you have to invent it from scratch. Take a high enough dose and peeing becomes an incredibly complicated endeavour but also a profound learning experience. So acid both helped and hindered my leadership skills in that situation. It was extra hard for me to do, but I went outside my usual abilities. It’s hard to explain if you don’t know, I hope I’m making some level of sense here.
I did another good hard reset the weekend before last. Felt great, I remember the true depth of trees and the meaning of everything being connected again. It’ll last me for a while! Though tbh, I think psilocybin works a bit better on the internal stuff and longterm understanding of the beauty of all the world and the beauty of your own insignificance. It has a longer, more lasting afterglow.
(MichaelEmouse, I think I was going to keep you posted on my next trip? See the above, I guess )