I actually ended up meeting “Flo” at about 12:30 in the afternoon. She was a hefty older black lady. (I knew that going in. I actually find such women attractive.) I laid out on her bed and she gave me a full body massage. Then, well, we did it. Unfortunately, because of a medication that I am on, I couldn’t, ah, “finish.” But she sure tried to get me off. She was very nice and loving, probably because I was so damned nervous at first. I may have activated her maternal instincts. I tipped her $10, justt because she was nice and put me at ease.
I’m rather underwhelmed by the whole experience. Even though she was very nice, it just didn’t feel right. I wasn’t bored, but I wasn’t really into it. Would I do it again? On that I’m rather ambivalent. Maybe, maybe not. This cost a lot of money (well, a lot to me right now) but it didn’t address any real need. I think I would’ve felt this way even if I had got off. Those people who told me that I wanted intimacy, not sex, were right. That’s something no prostitute could ever give me.
sorry it didn’t work ouy lizard. but you tried it, and if you hadn’t you probably would always have wondered.
best of luck to you in your new search for intimacy.
Well not personally. I usually go out to bars and buy drinks, or get em bought for me. Sometimes go into the bathroom for alittle mutual drug intake. Or sometimes go to an after party. Nothing like hanging out with someone from 2 until 6 to let you know if you wanna get together or not.
Although it’s too bad the experience left you rather unsatisfied, Lizard, I’m happy to read those last three sentences of yours. At least now you know, huh? Good luck in your search for intimacy.
I wish you the best luck to find someone out there.
I know how it feels being lonely,
I don’t know if peole just think I’m just making it up
that I need someone, but that’s the true.
I’m single and I hate it.
If only we all single here on the board could meet each outher.
Maybe some one could get lucky then.
You should read my thread I’m not drunk tonight, I’m tipsy.
I really have been isolated because of my stupid back,
so, I haven’t been able to go out and meet someone
for som years.
It’s a long and a bit sad story,
I don’t want to go into any more of it now.
When you have so much pain that you can’t be up for more
than 1 hour most, you can’t go out and do normal stuff.
But, on the bright side, it has started to get better now,
so hopefully I’ll find someone out there.
I certainly hope so. You seem like a nice girl. (And you’re bilingual too! I always find people who have skills I lack interesting. ) Here’s hoping for a fast recovery!
Thanks for sharing. I was a little worried you were just going to leave us hanging. Just out of curiousity, how much did the whole evening wind up costing? Oldscratch quotes $130, but I don’t see that in your OP.
Anniz, I know travel may be difficult for you, but the bay area is currently suffering from this excess of single straight men with a thing for Swedes . . .
Lizard: since you laid everything out for us, might as well explain what that medication is. Is it something you could be off from for a few days, to, ah, perform.
I’m sorry (and admittedly, not very surprised) it was such an unfulfilling experience for you. I have been following each of your threads, and just now decided to reply.
I’m actually relieved to hear that you felt that way; otherwise it would seem that you just wanted to use a woman for the sake of sex…a supreme insult IMHO (I know there are women who wouldn’t be at all bothered by it). More than that, really, it shows that you do have emotional needs and are aware of their need for fulfillment. I’m not sure if this is making sense, but suffice it to say I’m glad you learned from it and came out with the conclusions you did.
That medication is Paxil, an anti-depressant. Yeah, I could be off it. I don’t really need it, but I’m taking it right now because I’m under so much stress. (My doctor recommended it after I started getting pounding headaches at all hours of the day and night.) I would have to be off it for a few days, maybe a week, before most of the side-effects went away.
sliv- to answer your question, yes it was $130. I could’ve got it cheaper though. (Not that I wanted to…)
Ruffian- as the charter member of your fan club, thanks. I think that after this I couldn’t use a woman if I wanted to.
If you were off it for that long, you would also be experiencing withdrawal symptoms. I took it for a few months and just stopped one day. It’s a pretty odd senstation that is best described as a oddly paranoid, anxiety ridden space flight.
I would probably still be on it, if it weren’t for my affection for drinking and orgasms.
I can still get off, it’s just much harder to do so, and sometimes I can’t at all. But I’ve never heard of Paxil’s effect on drinking habits. What does it do? Is it easier/harder to get drunk? I only drink on rare occasions, so I haven’t learned firsthand yet.
What I really like about it is that it’s ended my nervous eating.
