Fuck! How could this happen?
Last year, he didn’t get a single interview and he was devastated, and we had to put our lives on hold for another year. But each year, about 25% of people don’t get matched at all, so we figured another year of clinical experience and he’d be good to go.
This year, he had 10 interviews - when the typical number is 3 or 4. He spent a month flying all over the country. Thousands of dollars. The interviews went so well. People in his department were referencing him as the great success story to give others hope.
We wanted so badly to end up in Chicago, because it’s closer to home, the same city as my best friend, doesn’t require driving, etc. We thought, this is it. This summer we’re finally going to settle down, put our roots somewhere, have children, and get on with the rest of life. Worst case scenario, we’d end up in Rochester (no offense, Rochester.) We were on pins and needles this morning waiting to find out where we’d end up.
But I never in my life dreamed this would happen. He didn’t fucking match. Again. He worked so hard you guys. God it just breaks my heart seeing him like this. He doesn’t deserve this. He’s so brilliant and hard-working and good. I know you probably think I’m biased, but people who know him all agree with me. Objectively, he deserves all the success in the world.
So what does this mean, practically? Another year hundreds of miles from home, completely isolated from family and close friends, another year waiting to have children, another year of horrible commutes in New Jersey. And we do have to move south again, because I’m 90 minutes from my current job and just cannot do another year of this commute.
There is a Match 2 process, but the chances are slim and he’ll have to go through the process all over again in the next month.
I don’t even know what we’re going to do. I don’t even think he has funding for another year. Shit fuck fuck shit GAH!
On preview: I’m talking about my husband and it’s for clinical psychology internship. The only thing he has standing between himself and a Ph.D. is completing internship.)