Those of you who worked full-time jobs while finishing your grad work–how did you do it? And how did things work out? Is it really hard–if not impossible–to go back to grad school or an academic life full-time if it takes you a while to get your research/writing done?
I’m ready to acknowledge that I am in a state of total burnout. I’m sick of my crappy TA job, working for a course that’s incredibly badly designed and not very well-run. I love to teach, and I like my students, but I just can’t put up with this anymore.
I’m not making progress on my thesis–not because I hate my research, or because I don’t want to finish, but because I don’t trust my advisor. The other people in the lab and I don’t seem mesh very well, either, despite my attempts to make the environment as nice as possible. I get this knot in my stomach every time I go into the lab. Not a good sign. And I’ve been in this program too long, and put way too much effort into my present research, to switch advisors or programs at this point.
I’ve been fighting this for quite a while now, but recent events have made it clear to me that it’s time to get a real job. I can always work on my thesis at night, in the lab while no-one’s there. I’d have less time if I had a real job, but I think the feeling of security–and maybe achievement, or at least of not being a loser–that comes with some getting paid decently would give me the energy to actually get the work done.
Here’s the problem–I have no idea what I’d have to offer to a prospective employer. I must have some abilities or skills that someone would want to hire me for. But I don’t have a clue what they are. AFAIK, everything I’ve been trained in and/or do at least semi-decently at is more or less useless outside of academia. I’ve been doing research in forest ecology. I know something–not much, really, but something–about forests, plants in forests, and insects in forests. I don’t think I can even really claim expertise in my own field, let alone in anything else that I do. I’d be willing to work in a field outside my professional training (such as it is). There are lots of things I love–and that maybe I do well–that have nothing whatsoever to do with forests, insects or plants. But I strongly doubt that anyone’s going to pay me to do them. I’m getting the feeling that the people I work with, feeling that I’m doing something really worthwhile, and having autonomy over my work are more important to me than anything else in a job, anyway.
So, really, I feel completely lost. All I know is that I’d like to make decent money and at least kind of enjoy my job from one day to the next while I’m working on graduating.
Any tips anyone could give me would be appreciated.