I had a disturbing dream about half an hour ago.
First I was dreaming that I was someone else…someone who was being watched, by an intruder, as I slept and gradually realized this. Then I switched to being me, with Mr. Rilch and some other people, recreating for them: “Oh god, do you remember when we lived in the old apartment? And I woke up to that guy strangling me? That was the scariest moment in my life…not even being able to call out to you and you were right there. Thank god you woke up.”
Gradually, by degrees, I became more awake, until I finally realized that that wasn’t no memory. I heard Mr. Rilch tossing and turning next to me, and asked if he was awake too. He said he was, and I told him, “I just had a dream that I very much hope wasn’t a premonition.”
He says it may just be some fear in my subconscious, but he’s glad I told him anyway.
We’re quite safety conscious…but I constantly fear that we, or I, may overlook something that we never thought we should do or not do, and create an opportuntiy for an attacker. Or there may be some way that I’m/we’re vulnerable that I simply can’t, physically or logically, do anything about.
For instance, I always look in my backseat before I get in my car. But if someone was in there, I’m not sure what I could do. Run, yeah, but… I’ve also heard the one about attackers hiding under cars and slashing people’s ankles. I believe that to be an urban legend. But even if it’s not, I’m damned if I’m going to bend down and look under my car before I get into it. That would definitely make me a target.
There’s also the fact that the BBQ last night didn’t agree with me, plus Mr. Rilch forgot to turn down the thermostat. Man, I hope that’s all it was.