Not like I love See’s vanilla suckers, or Beethoven’s third piano concerto, or my Mobius strip bracelet [all things I definitely love] – but as in, I really, truly feel a heart full of love when I’m out there.
I spent the afternoon out there today, puttering around, doing the second installment of spring cleanup (which I started last week). I was raking out beds and picking up trash and just generally reacquainting myself with what all is going on out there. “Oh, right, that’s where those daisies Mary gave me finally ended up.” “Hmph, looks like the monkshood is finally established” (that took several years of putting a few new plants in every year). “Oooh, I’d forgotten about the white bleeding heart, pretty pretty.” I smile every year because when I moved the forsythia, geez, back in '94, I forgot there were tulip bulbs back in that corner – and they come up every year, behind and below the forsythia so you can barely see them. (Naturally, there are plenty of other tulips planted more recently and treated with far more consideration that have gone to the great compost pile in the sky.)
I’m reminded of friends and family, those still around and those moved away or passed on – here are the daylilies Dick gave me, Aunt Mary Ann was with me when I got those irises, that yarrow came from my sister’s garden, that’s the clump of geraniums I’ve whacked at time after time to give a clump to Marie, to Kathy, to Doug, to the neighbor four houses down, to that girl who used to be in the Art Department at work, what was her name… And Meredith is starting a garden from scratch this spring, I’ve already promised her some of the geraniums and some of the creeping dianthus – but I’d forgotten the columbines were so thick, I can give her some of those, I wonder if she needs any lamb’s ears…
I love the continuity and connectedness of my garden. I love that when spring comes, stuff starts coming up, each type of plant at its own right time, without me controlling it or reminding it. I love that it’s a project that’s never done. I love the fact that not all of my plans work – because I love coming up with new plans. I love plants that self-seed. I love the smell and the feel of moist, rich soil. I love going out there to do one quick thing and looking at my watch and realizing that three hours have gone by.
Yup, I love my garden.