It’s been one of those weeks where, if I could, I’d just stay in bed all day. Actually, it’s pretty much been one of those months.
I didn’t really sleep last night. I think I finally drifted off around 4:30 this morning. With the nightmares I had, I think it would have been better if I had stayed awake.
I’m trying so desperately to be happy. I have to be; it’s the only thing I know to do that will start fixing things. But then… certain words echo in my mind, and I start to feel lost in a way I thought I wasn’t going to have to feel again. I’ve never been so scared.
Maybe I shouldn’t be posting this. Maybe I should just figure out a way to be happy on my own – or at least pretend to be – but I needed to get some of this out before I went to class. I have to go suck it up and do what’s expected of me.
Jessica darling…you, of all people deserve only GOOD things to come your way. I’m sending a prayer and hugs to the tenth degree! Hope all feels better soon.
You know where to reach me, and I’d be honored to listen if you want to talk.