So sorry you have to “pound the pavement,” you poor dear. :rolleyes:
Your current troubles are a direct result of decisions you’ve made. Hopefully the silver lining here is that you will make better decisions in the future.
Your post quoted above makes you look like somewhat of an idiot. If you want to bump that up to “complete idiot” (see, e.g., Acid Lamp, Broomstick), then keep replying to this thread to tell everyone why their suggestions for getting you out of this situation won’t work.