Hey, I quite for years and picked up again. Huge mistake. But shame, like alcohol, can kill you. Generally because it leads to more alcohol.
It’s a real struggle and you’re far from alone. I can totally see why the resurrection of the thread would be painful–especially when people aren’t reading as closely as they might–but don’t focus on failure. Lots and lots of sober alcoholics have a very long history of trying and failing behind them.