This sucks.
Yesterday a meeting was held between the entire company, not just our office. I gues I kinda saw it coming, since it is not going very well with Lucent right now and people have been layed off before. But I always believed that our business unit would make it somehow.
I believed wrong.
Yesterday we were notified that Lucent is laying off another 4,000 people worldwide, on top of the 10,000 earlier this year. Also, our office will be integrating with core Lucent and that means that I will most probably be redundant. So it’s so long for me.
Now, I don’t really mind. The company’s culture wasn’t really my own and I never felt really comfortable here, but the pay was excellent and I doubt I will ever receive the same amount of money in any other company. Which sucks. Big time. Especially since I just bought a house and probably need to sell that. That sucks donkey dicks too…
So, what am I to do? I can ofcourse always find a new job. Shouldn’t be too hard. But I feel that I’ve seen the ICT business so far. I’d like to do something different, but I wouldn’t know what. I could try to become a nuclear physicist, but I fear that that might be a tad out of my league… I have the feeling that this will be a crossroad in my life and can make either a good or a bad dicision which will have an impact on the rest of my life. Which sucks too, because I’ve never been known to make the right decisions…
Anyway, I’m not sure why I posted this. I doubt anyone here can help in any way. I suppose I just needed to vent. Please bury this thread as deep as possible never to be found again.