It’ll be short, I promise.
The company lost a customer that constituted 25% of its business. I was one of the employees selected for the financial belt tightening.
What hurts is that I am…was the most senior employee aside from the VP. Five years of employment straight out of university. The company went through so many changes that despite my attempts at documentation, there are some procedures that only survive in my head. Our department worked primarily in document editing, and I was the only one who learned enough VB to create Word macros to streamline our work. The department went from a two-person operation when I joined to six people, the company similarly tripling in size and business. There was no grand, heroic gesture on my part that aided in this except long, tireless hours and a desire to produce the best work I could.
Yeah, I got burned out. I’ve been in a slump the last couple months, and I made the mistake of being honest with my boss, said VP, about it. My work barely suffered, but because I wasn’t putting in 110% effort, I got shown the door. I guarantee you it’s going to be harder for them to survive this hit without me than with. But then, this morning I was certain that I was indispensable. Go figure.
I’ve been wanting to leave the company for a while now. I needed to do something new. But I also needed to leave on my terms. I have nothing saved. Foolish, but I had hoped that once my roommate left in a month or two I could start putting money away. No chance now. I’ve got enough money to last me until the end of the year and that’s all. I only hope I’m luckier than my family members who’ve been laid off and haven’t been able to find work for over a year.
I just don’t know.