My position, along with a dozen or so other jobs at my company, has been eliminated. I wasn’t supposed to find out until Monday, but a friend in upper management was kind enough to give me a heads-up (on the condition that I keep it secret until Monday). I’m glad he trusts me with such important information.
We’ve all known that business has been very bad in the last couple of months, but I’m sill a little shocked at the suddenness of the whole thing. As the title says, this is my first lay-off.
Tomorrow I will have a cushy, white-collar computer job with my own laptop and super-sized cubicle on the top floor, and Monday I’ll probably be escorted (along with a handful of other unlucky souls) out of the building by security guards while the electronic locks are changed behind us.
I’m glad I found out today, because now I have plenty of time to work through the emotions. The shock will be over by Monday, and I’ll be able to act in a calm and respectful manner as my livelihood, medical plan, and 401K is yanked from under my feet. Hopefully I’ll even be able to offer solace to my fellow corporate refugees.
I’m almost more worried about them than myself. My “source” refused to tell me who they were, fearing I’d be tempted to warn them. I think I can guess who most of them are though. My company’s not very big, and a dozen people amounts to about 10% of the workforce. Some of them are friendly, intelligent, hard-working people. Some of them have been with the company for decades. And some need their jobs far more than I do. They don’t deserve this kind of treatment.
I’m afraid some of them might lose control when they get the news. It’s going to be difficult to see that. I don’t know the standard protocol for these kind of lay-offs, but I’m guessing we’ll be kept separate, in case emotions run high and we end up fueling each other’s fires.
I don’t find this very comforting. Yes, I might be spared the pain of watching the emotional breakdown of a coworker, but I think I’d feel better if we could stick together and offer each other moral support. So at least we can feel like we’re in it together.
I’m not very upset about losing my job. It wasn’t the best work in the world. I’d been playing with the idea of finding new employment for a few months now, so this might be a blessing in disguise. I’ll no longer be tempted to remain in a comfortable-yet-dead-end situation. Now that the inertia’s been taken away, I have to go out and find a better job. Job hunting is going to be a big pain in the ass, but I’ve been through it before, and I’ve always managed to climb out of the hole one way or the other.
Things could be worse. I could have kids to support. Or mortgage payments. My health is good, I’ve got a few grand in the bank, and I’ve got loving, supportive parents who’d give me the clothes off their back if I needed it.
I guess I’ll let you folks know how Monday goes, if you’re interested in hearing about it.