Would you rather have a life full of typical highs and lows such as the car breaking down, and being dumped- yet winning a few hundred dollars at bingo and finding true love…
or would you rather have a life that has a couple great big momentous occasions, but also a couple big tragedies…(such as winning the lottery, yet giving birth to a severely handicapped baby)
I’ve decided that everything evens-out in the end… I’ll take my car falling apart occasionally, to having a Rolls Royce- if it meant someday I’d accidentally run someone down with it…
Or maybe this is just how I rationalize my life enough to be content with it… who knows.
I want for great big momentus things, like finding true love, even if it means spending a year in hospital or having a dissabled child. As long as I got the small things happen as well.
Well… In even a typical life you can find true love.
I’m talking about good things that only happen to a miniscule population being the “momentous” type things like winning the million dollar lottery, or finding out you’ve inherited a mansion…
My grandmother, two years ago, spent 19 horrible days dying in ICU. During that time I once drove to my family home while a warm early spring caused the snow’s moisture to coalesce on every still, living thing and spent 15 minutes driving through a somewhat foggy winterland full of ethereal dreamery.
Everything balances, good and bad. Sometimes people don’t see the good.
In 2001, I inherited a large sum of money and got married.
The day after I got back from my honeymoon, I ended up in the hospital (not in the good way, it was a foot infection). While in the hospital I found out my diabeties had gotten out of control. My kidneys are in really bad shape, and I will need a transplant in the next 10 years or so. Then I had to go for 3 surgeries on my eyes, and only my right one was saved.
Which category would you CONSIDER yourself to be in?
And sure, we all want the good big stuff… but I don’t know if I want to get the bad side that balances that out…
I’ll go for the extremes. I’ve got the disposition for it and that’s been the trajectory so far. Well, actually the last decade has been kinda boring but up until then that was the trajectory.
I always think about this kind of stuff. Personally I’d choose the first life because I would rather live a kinda quiet life anyways, and having not too many tragedies in my life would be icing on the cake
