I'm a bad Christian. Please help me.

In My Humble Opinion
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Gosh. Reading all of these posts is making me feel all warm and fuzzy inside. :slight_smile:

I actually have been to confession fairly recently, and will probably go again before Lent is over. It was very helpful in getting my prayer life back into shape (I had been letting the prayer lapse big time), which I guess is the first step toward dealing with this problem. I’ve also been listening to relaxation music a lot just of late- I bought a bunch of CD’s for my massage room, but until I actually move into it, well, I can listen to them myself.

I also gave my mom a reflexology massage this afternoon and I felt better afterward (this is an interesting effect I notice when I give a massage, I usually end up feeling pretty good afterward, a lot of the time some of my own aches and pains go away, sometimes I think I get more out of it than the person on my table).

Lord Ashtar, I like “quell”. I’ll have to try that little prayer.

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I’m going to be a repeater and say you are not a bad Christian - everyone struggles. I too find solace (and mind-blowing thoughts) reading C.S. Lewis. I received a daily devotional of sorts compiled of Lewis’s religious writings. It’s amazing. I think it’s called *A Year with C.S. Lewis * (if you’re interested, that is)

I also think perhaps Confession or merely sitting down with a member of the clergy to have a heart to heart would be cleansing and insightful. You are acknowledging and trying to work through these moments and I think that’s really amazing. It shows great strength.

If speaking with clergy does not help, perhaps talking to therapist would. I don’t know if that’s the right term (therapist) but someone in the medical profession that could help with feelings of rage that are not appropriate for the situation.

On a side note, I have never done anything for Lent (my Protestant church has never emphasized giving up anything, etc) but I really like your idea of adding something such as prayer or more bible reading. That’s a great idea!

And on a second side note: “Islets of Langerhans” teehee :stuck_out_tongue: My roommate in college was studying for something that included that term and I laughed for five minutes straight because I thought she said “Eyelids of Langerhans” and I couldn’t figure out why they would call one part of the body after another. It was an in-joke the entire we were in college. Good memory! Your location made me smile - thanks! :cool: