i was at my son’s wrestling practice, when the coach made a kid stand in the middle of the room.
he said the boy’s family doesn’t have a car and would anyone give him a lift to the team’s away matches.
this boy was very awkward looking…chubby, thick coke bottle glasses, cross eyed. pasty pale skin, stains on his tee shirt. and looking mortified to be the center of attention
and no one was exactly leaping to help him.
i felt terrible for him so i volunteered.
the coach sent the boy’s father to me to make arrangements.
well, i was surprised to notice the boy’s “father” was a black man.
i made arrangements to pick up the boy and gathered up my son’s gym bag and headed for the car.
it was cold and rainy so i offered to take the boy and his dad home. they gratefully hopped in.
well, now i’ve somehow turned into a taxi for this family. and i really don’t mind that part. they live less than a mile from me. i have to go past their apartment to get to wrestling practices and competitions.
what upsets me, is that i can’t get past the fact that he’s black. on our way back from the meet i took the kids to McDonalds for a happy meal. i felt every eye on me as i sat with him.
i have a personal rule about doing anything that even “APPEARS” like a date with any man who isn’t my husband. so i tried to convince myself that my discomfort was because i was dining out without my husband, but no, truth was, i was embarrased to be seen publicly with a black man
while this man is clearly very poor, he has never behaved as anything less than a perfect gentleman
so basically what i’m saying is i’m a hypocrite. i talk a good game about racisim being nothing more than ignorance and fear, but i fall into the same traps.
(actually, usually i get on my soapbox and start preaching how racism is a tool of the Devil and it’s only purpose is to separate us from each other, and from God. and that as Christians we will be recognized by our love for each other. but i realize this isn’t a Christian forum so i’ll leave it at that.)
well, anyway, what i’m trying to say is that as human beings go, i have room for improvement, and i’ll work on it. racism in any form is unacceptable and it’s gotta go.
i still plan on keeping my rule about no men except my husband. and usually my husband rides with us to wrestling matches. but sometimes he works on saturdays.
well, those of you who do pray, pray for me
i’m a hypocrite
I’m pink therefore I’m Spam