I’m back, my membership expired about six months ago. I decided to renew and share some random thoughts about my life and what has happened recently.
If anyone was following what I was posting before, it was mostly along the lines of being depressed. I had a serious breakdown over Christmas and almost began taking anti-depressants. I say almost…it was a good thing my small amount of sensibility took over. I have worked together with my parents to try to get some things straightened out in my life.
I won’t say yet I’ve figured it all out, but I don’t feel deeply depressed anymore. I am handling myself better in public then I have in a long time. My social anxiety has decreased though I still am not creating any new relationships. My job as a teacher continues to roll along. Even though I am not satisfied where I live and am getting tired of the job, I am willing to stick it out one more year in order to build up a decent savings.
I am trying to set goals for both next year and the year after (the year after being the year I resign and head elsewhere)
In a way having that serious emotional breakdown was a good thing…I feel very humbled and have opened up to some people more than I have in years. I feel cautiously optimistic about the future.
Thanks for being my ears during a real period of crisis for me, I hope the worst is behind me. Rest assured you guys will help keep me sane in a community where I really don’t fit in well.
I’ll try to post more optmisitic things from now on
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I’m glad you’re doing better, but please- depression is an illness, and has nothing to do with not having sensibility. That would be like me saying that I got diabetes, and almost had to take medication, but fortunately, I came to my senses and now I don’t have it anymore.
I think my depression came a lot more from life decisions. I have led a poor personal life and am now making decisions to right things. I tend to be emotional, but now I am better at letting things go rather then let it get to me. This is likely something I will have to deal with my whole life, but at least I am coping better than before.
It’s good to see you back! I’m glad that things are coming together for you.
If your depression is not organically based, then an organic solution is not right for you. Good on you for dicovering what’s really going on and dealing with it at the appropriate level.
