If it helps, I’m white and I’ve always secretly wished I was Latina. and Jewish. At least you are only dealing with one wierd racial longing.
Seriously, the OP isn’t well phrased, but it is something I have heard from a lot of people I know. Often it is just wondering about a different future. In someplaces, certain ethnicities get pigeon holed in certain ways. I have a friend who is half-white and half-Mexican. Where I grew up, there is great diversity and he probably wouldn’t think much of it. But in this town there is pretty much only white people and Mexican people, and the divide is pretty sharp. He often gets pigeonholed as one or the other and as a result he has an ambivelent relationship towards both sides of his heritage.
This kid looks like he just experienced a sharp loss of status. In his country, he seems to have gotten a lot of positive attention for his skin color. Around the world, white skin is still often held in high respect. Then he comes here, and suddenly he’s not only not on the top of the heap, he’s close to the bottom! Thats gotta be tough.
My advice, kid, is don’t lose track of who you are. A lot of us white folks are sitting here wishing we had roots- to the point that we will outright make up cultural hertiages. It may be hard to come to a country where there is so much diversity, but only one skin color seems important. Just know that on an individual level, a lot of people don’t care. And there are some cities and areas out there where being Latino means somethig completely different than what it means where you live. And there are pppppllllennnnttty of women that prefer some hot Latin action to anything else.