I was baptized Catholic when I was six months old, and I haven’t been active in the church since I was six years old, having opted for seeking and finding God in nature, various happenings, etc.
I was aware for some time that my great-grandmother was Jewish. Prompted by this fact and finding out that a few favorite musicians of mine were Jewish, I decided to research Judaism for my own enjoyment. Naturally, looking further into the basics of the faith made for an interesting surprise; mainly, that I am a Jew according to those in the Orthodox and Conservative faiths.
If I correctly recall, Catholicism and Judaism are somewhat different. While, as I mentioned, I am quite the lapsed Catholic, I am still confused (not in a bad way, mind) by this recent discovery, since I never attended Jewish services, I have never seen a menorrah save the big white metal one on a freeway in New York City, I eat lots of pork and cheeseburgers, and like that.
However, a rather unconscious identifying with Jews seems to be explained, as well as my fondness for things Jewish that I never gave a second thought to.
While I sort things out within myself, I’d like to ask if anyone here has been or is in my position, and how did/do you deal with this? I feel comfortable with what I have researched about the Jewish faith and its ideals in general, and I feel quite honored to be associated with such a gentry, however distant this association may be. But, I don’t consider myself very worthy of being a Jew, however ignorant I was when engaging in past behaviors, and I’m sure I couldn’t just be accepted tomorrow as such. I guess I sort of feel guilty. Anyone out there like this?
While this is more of a poll, I put it in GD due to the religious nature of this post; I hope I was correct in assuming.