I am tired. I would fall asleep if I went to bed. But I can’t get myself to actually want to go to bed. Even though I know I should. Even though I know, from experience, that being up this late is going to make tomorrow terrible. And I’m not doing anything urgent or particularly engrossing. I just think about going to bed and think a thought that basically means “fuck that.” No reason given.
What is this? It’s a kind of sleeplessness. But it’s not insomnia. Is it? Is there a word for it?
It happens to me all the time.