I’ve had trouble falling asleep for years, well decades now and it’s getting worse. As a matter of fact, I didn’t sleep at all last night. A fortnight ago, I slept something like 5 hours in three days.
Typically, I’ll go to bed at my regular time and basically lie there waiting to fall asleep and, the best way to describe it is: nothing happens. It’s not like I necessarily have problems on my mind. Sometimes, it really seems to me that my brain has “forgotten” how to fall asleep. Hours pass by and I’m 99% certain that I don’t sleep at all. I look at the alarm clock at depressingly regular 20-30 minutes intervals or go to the bathroom. Mildly TMI:
I always tend to pee a lot when I have a sleepless night . So I know that I’m wide awake at, say, 10:33 and 10:57 and 11:26 and 11:45 and 0:13 and so on.
Yet, there are two points which really make me wonder, hence the “99% certain”.
(1) It doesnt matter how little I sleep (or rather don’t sleep), I always feel… not bad the next day until late afternoon at least. That means I can go to work, do an adequate job and can even deal with change of plans, unexpected problems. I don’t feel good of course but my system works OK.
(2) Time seems to fly when I don’t sleep. During the day, there’s no way you’d get me to stay in bed for more than 1 hour doing nothing. I’d get bored and restless very quickly. Even listening to the radio or reading a book is OK for 1 hour, 1 hour 1/2 max. But at night I can lie wide awake in bed for 5, 6, 7 hours straight or even the whole night and somehow, not get bored. No books, no radio, nothing and yet I can lie like this, wait and watch hours pass by, something I’d be utterly unable to do during the day.
So could I be getting some quick sleep episodes without realizing it? Is there such a thing?