I’ll admit it - I’m naturally scrawny, self-conscious about it, and have been determined to change it. The trouble is, I just can’t.
For years I bought into the “total fitness” idea. A good diet and healthful excercise are important to good health, but I think I’ve actually spent decades going in the wrong direction.
I don’t want to admit it, but I think strength training may have been a huge mistake. I understand (and believe deep down) all the arguments in favor of it, and I think they’re valid for most people. It helps with bone density, increases and maintains muscle mass (duh), and generally stitches everything together better. You become more resistant to impact injury, your joints are supported better, and stuff like that. Done properly, strength training also has significant cardiovascular benefits.
But it just doesn’t work for me. I have to work far too hard to maintain any kind of conditioning. For years I managed to keep my body weight right at 190 pounds, but that came at the cost of hours of daily effort. I thought it was worth it, though, because I felt great. Unfortunately, nearly a year ago I hurt my shoulder and had to drastically curtail my workouts, and within six months I lost twenty pounds. Since then I’ve been able to claw my way back up to about a buck-eighty, but it’s been a long hard slog and it’s discouraging to know that if I stop this grueling schedule I’ll be a toothpick again in no time.
This morning I had an epiphany. I just don’t need to do this any more. I don’t play professional football and I don’t fall down a lot or anything. Hell, when you get right down to it I don’t even really need to look good at this point, because I’m married and she’s stuck with me. All I really plan on doing from now until I die is a sensible cardio program just so I don’t keel over from angina before my time. Besides, while I’m not quite forty years old, I’m sure as hell not twenty anymore either.
I’ve resigned myself to being a pasty (I also don’t tan well ), sickly looking punk. I’ll do what I have to do for my health, but otherwise my gym rat phase is over.
I guess I’m sort of begging for some validation here. Somebody please tell me I’m doing the right thing.