I haven’t posted to a monthly weight loss thread for a few years now, but I’m trying to get back into a weight loss/health/workout routine. I’m a 32-year old female and right now I weight about 280lbs at 5’5" (size 22)
This whole post is probably TLDR, so feel free to skip the details below. The summary of my current situation/goals:
- I was 284 lbs on June 1st
- Today I’m 280.2 lbs
- My goal is to lose about 1.5 to 2 lbs per week
- Ideally, would like to be 200lbs by the time I graduate from nursing school in May of 2012
- I have no idea what my final goal weight will be, I’m not sure what would be realistic for me
- I was 170lbs and a size 12-14 in grade 12. I was healthy, a cheerleader and a rugby player.
- Clothing-wise, I would be happy ending up with a size 12 as long as I’m healthy and fit and strong
TLDR Version:
About 5-6 years ago, I started calorie-counting and portion control, and I lost about 65lbs (going from 270 to 210), but I got sick of the calorie-counting. I felt that it was pushing me into an unhealthy mentality that was almost anorexia-like. I found that all I was thinking about all day long was food, what I had for breakfast, what I planned to eat later, constantly keeping track in my food-log software program, then having to constantly readjust every time I accidentally had an extra half tbsp of mayonnaise on a sandwich, so I’ll have a little less rice with supper, then someone brought coffee to a meeting, so I should readjust my afternoon snack, always weighing and measuring every morsel, dreaming about food every night, etc, etc, etc… NOT good for my mental health. Also, I was calorie-counting and eating smaller portions of my usual food, but not really eating healthier food. And I wasn’t doing much exercise. So not really so good for my physical health either.
Anyways, long story short I lost 65lbs over about a year, and I thought I’d take a break from strict dieting and see if I could maintain my weight loss with sensible portion control and try to work out more often. My weight crept up to about 240-245 over two years. I wasn’t thrilled with that, but my weight was stable after that for several years so I figured at least I wasn’t gaining. And I kept planning to lose more weight eventually, I just never quite got around to it.
Then 3 1/2 years ago I started getting abdominal pain and frequent trips to the bathroom; turns out I have Crohn’s disease. And 3 years ago I went back to school to become a RN (4-year degree program, so I still have one year left to go). I tried to work out more when I went back to school (gym membership included in student fees), but I was anemic and weak and in a lot of pain from the Crohn’s, and I physically couldn’t work out - I could barely make it through the school day and then go home and nap for a couple hours, eat supper and study, and go to sleep. Wash, rinse, repeat. Little social life, and usually didn’t even have enough energy for a part-time job.
The Crohn’s got worse and worse for two years after the diagnosis and I tried different medications, and then I had surgery last summer (August 2010), and I’m feeling a lot better now but still not 100%.
Meanwhile over the last three years of Crohn’s and going to school, my weight was 245 a year ago, then quite quickly down to 220 in August 2010 (I was basically eating very little for two months prior to surgery since my Crohn’s was so bad). Then after the surgery I was able to eat again without pain, and being in school and working as well (since I had more energy now), I was really busy and eating lots of crappy food, and since last August I gained 60lbs and I’m now at 280lbs.
So just at the beginning of June I put my foot down and said 280lbs is ridiculous, I should know better since I have a lot of knowledge about exercise and nutrition, I’m just not using it like I should.
So I didn’t like calorie-counting the last time I tried it, but I can’t deny it’s definitely worked for me in the past. I looked and found a program that is easier to use than the last one I was using, and I started tracking my food a couple days ago. I also started weighing myself more often (since I found it’s easy for me to let weight creep up on me if I don’t weight myself for long periods of time).
Also, I think my approach this time will be better for my mental health if I have a general daily calorie target, but if I’m not super nitpicky about it. Ideally I would just use portion control, but I think I need to use calorie counting, at least at first. I also plan to work out more often since I’m feeling physically better now that my Crohn’s is under control.
I’m also trying to eat healthier, and not just smaller portions of not-so-great food, but I’m finding this difficult due to my Crohn’s. Since my surgery my symptoms are 98% improved, but it’s difficult to eat really healthy. If I try to eat foods that are generally healthier (most veggies, some fruit, anything high fiber), I find I can’t tolerate it very well. I don’t need to do a completely low residue diet, but I think I need to avoid things that are high residue. So I’m doing trial and error to find healthier food that doesn’t irritate me. As River Tam would say, “my food is problematic”.
Hopefully I’ll have a good update for next month’s thread.