It has been my personal belief, for the past two years or so, that our very lives are governed by two entities namely Fate and Chance. I believe that we hold free will over our lives and our decisions and yet we are controlled implicitly by Fate and that are futures are predetermined.* This may seem like a contradiction but simply because our actions are predetermined doesn’t mean that we haven’t made the choices freely. We are simply “pre-programmed” for lack of a better word. We make free choices every day and play the game with Chance. Some will be good, some will be bad. But regardless our choices lead us into the tunnel of Fate. This is a path that cannot be avoided, as much as we occasionally wish we could sometimes, and Fate leads us through the consequences of our actions.
There has always been a conflict between Fate and Chance. A war between choosing a life and having to live a life out. And it seems Fate has a decisive superiority. While all chances lead inexorably to a governed fate, such a fate leads to diminishing the chances you have to alter your outcomings. In essence there are things you simply cannot take back. For this reason it may seem that we relish chance over fate, a statement I adamantly agree with. After all the chances we have can all be good. But some fates will be bad simply because that is a fact of life. For this reason I pictured Chance and Fate as a fight between good and evil respectively. It’s almost like the Devil/Angel conscience idea. Chance continually strives for the choices that lend to more choices, i.e. better things. Fate, however, works to set you on a unchanging path, i.e. bad things. Chance is always there to offer the ability to improve. Fate remains to ensure you never excel.
The reason for this pointless, long winded thought over nothing is simply the fact I screwed up a very good thing in my life and hurt a very important person and I have to live with that forever. But hey, it’s 2 in the morning, I’ve had a bit to drink and maybe I might have a made a point or two along the way.
*Actually I believe the future has already happened but that’s another story.