Wow. I wish I could respond to all one-by-one, and thank you. Some of you have made me laugh, most of you have given me the good shake I needed, and all of you have avoided me going to my mother with this and risking resentment from my side of the family.
I spent all of yesterday pretty much sick to my stomach over this. First, some background, because I want it very clear that I get along with my FMIL. She’s a strong, admirable lady and she’s been good to me in the past, she and I just differ in terms of what we feel is necessary and appropriate when it comes to behavior, and it’s becoming very obvious that my taste and sense of “okay, that’s good enough” is not on a par with hers.
I moved out here to be with my fiancé, and my family is all back on the East coast, so my FMIL is the one who took me out shopping and hugged me when I missed my mother. Her boyfriend had just moved out-of-state at the time, and she empathized with me. She babysits for us, brings food over, and is, for the most part, an amazing source of support and reliability. However, she won’t hesitate to remind us of this, should she not feel like she’s getting her due. I understand and feel for her, because she had an active social life before this, and now is mostly back-and-forth from work to her kids’ house, watching the grandkids.
My fiancé is amazing, caring and smart, but not the most eager to enter into an emotional discussion. When he tells his mother “no”, it’s usually in an elevated tone, with no little exasperation, and I can tell it affects him afterwards greatly if she is angry with him. My mother drilled it into me that I am always to be respectful of my elders and hold my tongue when I know I’m making a situation worse. It’s my mother’s voice I hear telling me to be gracious.
I suppose I thought that talking to him would bring on a wealth of sympathy and the promise to sort it out with her and save me the grief, but it’s true what y’all said: you gotta stand up for yourself. I figure I can still do this graciously and not be a doormat because of it. I went through her list of invitees last night and sorted it, and came up with how many I can invite that her present contribution will cover. As those who are invited overall decline, I will invite the ones left on the list. If this makes her angry with me, I’ll let her know that I have done all I could to accomodate her tastes, but that my primary concern is not the fanfare of the actual day, but the economic solvency of my newly minted marriage and family. If she can’t get behind that (emotionally or financially), I’ll sleep with a clear conscience, knowing I kept my manners and ultimately did what was best for me and my family.