I’m an amatuer writer, not by trade but by hobby. Someday I’ve love to see my stuff published and admired. A movie would be cool, but I’m not holding my breath and I’m certainly not writing for that purpose. In order for that to happen, I need to write somethign worthy of it.
And to do that, I’ve been trying to strengthen one of my weakest areas…Character. To say my characters are often stereotyped is like saying the ocean is wet. So I’ve been trying to improve them by reading what I can about the art and trying to learn what good characters are made of.
It’s still coming slowly and with difficulty. I can come up with backstory, but really creating distinct interesting, personalities is eluding me. And after some reflection, I’m pretty sure a big piece of the problem is that for the most part, people aren’t my strong suit.
I’ve tried people watching, but it doesn’t really tell me anything. I’ve tried looking at people and wondering…what’s their story? But I can’t think of anything and just seeing someone for 5 seconds walking by tells me next to nothing about them other then their clothing preference. And often, I feel I really don’t care enough to really try to guess.
I either am not interested by people or don’t know how to talk to them. Pretty much every conversation I have with people who aren’t close friends is purely interrogative and ulitilarian
Sample: “Do you mind if I sit here?” “No” “Thank you”.
Since I know nothing about people I meet(no known common interest), I have nothing to talk with them about. And so it goes.
I went to a film festival this weekend, based on a common theme, so I could be farily sure that most of the people there shared interest in that theme. Even then, when talking with actors and filmmakers, I could think of little more to talk to them about then their films.(Give them a bit of a review, ask any questions that came to mind, goodbye). The only conversations of real length and substace were with people I already knew from previous years.
Hell, I have friends who I barely talk to any more. One of which could be dead for all I know, since I haven’t heard a peep out of him in years. I had completely forgotten about him until just the other day Then I have others who I’ll talk to about anything and everything. A little project posted online 3 years ago got the attention of a guy in Germany, and it started an e-mail conversation that hasn’t stopped yet. I’ve never met the guy and I talk to him more then most people I know. So I am capable of talking people ears off about many different things if I know them.
Other times, I’ve had interesting conversations with people for the first and last time. The single serving ones. It’s interesting while it lasts and then neither of us will ever hear from each other again. Maybe I’ll send an e-mail and never get a reply, maybe there will be a secondary conversation and then nothing more. Maybe I just can’t think of anything else to say to them. And 99% of the time, the lack of subsequnt contact bothers me not at all.
And I’ve gone off track. I’m trying to figure out if I’m anti-social, have no interest in most of the human race(If you asked me who my hero was, I’d probably tell you I don’t have one. Ask me who was the most infuencial person on my life and I’ll say my father) or just have lousy(read:nonexistant) conversation intiation skills.
And back to the topic at hand, If I indeed don’t have any interest in people, is there a method of developing fictional characters in which this isn’t an issue(I suspect I know the answer, but I might as well ask. And don’t say the Lovecraft school, because I’m well familar with that one. I’m trying to move out of that school).
Reads back over that and sees if that makes any sense. Decides to post it anyway
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