It must be nice to be able to wake early after having slept through the night, that hasnt happened to me in years. Many times I wake at 3ish and when I do get to sleep, the fatigue takes over.
I applied at a food place a short walk from me and told them Any hours.
The woman texted me and said they want closers. You’re okay with working til 3 am? I said yes but havent heard back from her since Friday.
I lost my glasses. Again. These almost lasted a year. Had to have been on the recent dog walk, but I retraced my steps, concentrating on the area where I picked up after Bob, but no dice. Damnit. I’m glad these things are relatively cheap online these days.
This has also been my experience for many years. Age does that. I can’t remember the last time I slept all the way through the night. But I have my phone alarms set (repeatedly) and a clock across the room as well, for when I can’t afford to mess up. (Good grief, it sucks to wake up 2 hours before the alarm goes off and know going back to sleep is just going to make things worse in 3 hours! But it is what it is.)
We had a firefighter here not too long ago who said that once that alarm goes off, he’s in full alert mode no matter how little sleep he’s had; it’s just the nature of the job. That made a big impression on me.
ETA: I think Dr.Drake is spot on; you knew this wasn’t a good fit for you. But I have to wonder how good a fit you expect to have. Most of us work jobs we’re not wild about in order to keep food on the table.
ETA again: maybe I’m out of line and you just need to vent without someone ragging on you.
I thought maybe I shouldn’t post it. It could only make me look like a loser, but I decided to share, cause this is my community.
Posted at 4.39 est.
Back to bed.
Heh, I sleep just fine, but I wake up when my gf has to wake up at 5:30. My work is a 12 minute drive, and I arrive after 9 but before 9:30. Theoretically I could sleep until 8, but I really enjoy the peace of early morning.
On weekends we both auto-awake at 5:30.
You’re right because, after ten years of teaching, I not only had to change jobs but also careers for just that reason. Now, though, I’m just programmed to wake up I guess. LOL
You need to get a set of magnetic holders. I have friends who swear by them.
I was going to suggest @Jack_Batty just put a leash on the glasses when outdoors. A cord that connects to the earpieces and turns your glasses into a necklace when they’re not perched on your nose.
Darn hard to lose them outdoors the way, even when doing something aggressive and chaotic like playing in the surf.
It’s good to post it because maybe we can help you troubleshoot. We all have flaws.
When I look at my job and how flexible the hours are I often wonder if I could survive a strict 9-5 schedule. I get up whenever I want, go into the office or work from home whenever I want, spend all of Thursday morning in a waiting room while my son has therapy, and generally just don’t have to worry about punctuality or constant availability.
In return I do, I’m not gonna lie, exceptional work. So I’ve found the right fit for me. But I empathize with anyone with ADHD or fatigue or anything else adhering to a rigid schedule. The only reason I’m able to get up early is to get my son to daycare. I intend to wake up even earlier so I can exercise but I always end up snoozing. I wasn’t born with a ton of self-discipline.
Is that reasonable though? Can you really walk home safely at 3 am?
If you are not hearing/sleeping through all your alarms, I’d see a doctor about improving your sleep. That level of somnambulance seems pretty extreme. If you are just turning off the alarm and rolling over and going back to sleep, there really isn’t any useful advice other than stop making that choice.
Doctors aren’t free in the States. I’m not sure where SuntanLotion is from, though.
Ohio. I know the neighborhood well. If there are any bad people out, theyve probably seen me around town. Or I could get my coworker to drive 1 minute to drop me off.
What is it about traveling that causes a brand new razor to go dull one day in to a vacation? These blades seem to last for weeks at home, but put them in a shave kit, take them on a flight, and they are dull as hell after a day. Is the TSA fucking with me?
The good news: I found a therapist who specializes in working with parents of special needs children. This is very hard to find. And her schedule fits mine: 8pm on Thursday night, online. Great.
The bad news: Yet another intake. “Tell me about your abuse history.” Hours and hours of reliving my childhood through paperwork. I’m cooked for the day. I’m stress eating. I’m mad at my Mom. I’m remembering what it was like.
Oh and I had a nightmare about her too, last night. Because I watched the fucking Babadook and I kind of teased my husband for being so upset by it, then I promptly had a nightmare definitely triggered by that movie. In the dream, my mother had just signed over a deed to me so that I had a house to live in on my own. We got in a fight and I was rushing to secretly get the deed to the management office before she had a chance to revoke it. In my dream she was following me around yelling at me while I was trying to find somewhere to stash it. And she found the deed and took it from me right before I woke up.
This dream is reminiscent of what I actually went through right before I legally emancipated. I was living with my Aunt and my Mom came to my school and cut up my driver’s license right in front of the school counselor and told me she didn’t care if I ever graduated. At the time, I lived a 30 minute drive from my school, so my Aunt had to get up extra early and drop me off. My Aunt was so pissed. She was like, “You just need to fucking emancipate and end her control over you.” I knew she was right. After that my Aunt and I were trying to get my car title transferred to her name before my Mom could take my car. We had to do all this secret shit to prepare for the emancipation. So it was not a house, but my Mom was after assets I needed to live. She was actively trying to fuck up my life in every way possible. Fortunately I did get to keep the car and after I emancipated I got my driver’s license back. Fucking nightmare. Didn’t really care to think about that today.
Ah, dreams. Occasionally, like this morning, I’ll have the l cannot find my son dream. Its horrible. I wake up feeling awful.
Honestly SW I call BS on that. You’ve explained all the crap you do on a regular basis and nobody lacking self-discipline could do it.
You might not have as much as you’d like but you’re human and too hard on yourself.
Agreed. She demonstrates self-discipline 10x what I could muster. Every day.
Been in my home 30 years. New people with big bucks are moving in, but they don’t like me or my ‘lack of religion’… so they do the Harassment Thing.
It’s Block Busting ( textbook ) and they are trying to harass me into over-reacting so they can get that “On Tape”. They know where the cams are and where they can harass from off-camera.
So, Document Everything, make sure there is a clear time-line with the police, keep your lawyer on speed dial and your Mace next to your wallet… right?
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Timeline
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.Had large bald fat man moon/expose himself to me in the Park by my home Summer 2021.
Had tall thin Semetic person passing me in the Park by my home harass me about my looks and weight Late Summer 2021.
Had same large bald fat man tail-gate me for 10 blocks and then assault me, beat me to the ground, and brandish a shotgun at me near the entrance to the Starbucks 11/14/2021.
Detective Axxxxx Rxxxx assigned to case. Assailant never caught.
May 16th 2023 Rode bike to the Park by my home, played PokemonGo. Was hit by white minivan driven by brunette woman with scrunched up face, knocked to sidewalk. Broke 2 ribs. No plate number, so no report filed.
June 17th 2023 while Walking to the Park by my home to visit art crafts fair, had woman drive straight into the painted crosswalk and try to hit me.
June 26th 2023 Put my Pokemon on the gym closest to me in the Park by my home. Immediately, a Pokemon was added with the name “YendisNow” or
“Your End Is Now”. After that another account added a Pokemon with the name, “SJS410”.
If you Google that, it is a brand of hunting rifle. So… public death threats.
Honestly, are the cops even paying attention? Who’s the Bad Guy here? The one who supports President Biden? Or the Thugs hired by the people who don’t?
I really appreciate you folks and the nice things you say. You might be right. I just have this idea in my head of all the ways I’m supposed to be and I don’t fit that idea.
Also stimulants help A LOT. Before I was medicated everything felt 100x harder.
Let me adjust that to match reality for you:
I just have this idea in my head of all the ways
I’man unattainably perfect cyborg humanoid care-bot is supposed to be and I don’t fit that ridiculous idea. Instead I’m merely an awesome human doing my level best in a very difficult circumstance.