I am so sorry for your loss.
And so glad that you and he had such a good life together; and that you were able to be with him at the end, and to see that he went gently.
@Whack-a-Mole is right: grief manifests in weird ways. Don’t worry about the tears. They’ll show up at some odd time; or they won’t. Either way, you know, and Binx knew, that you loved him.
I’m so sorry. I’m going to have to say goodbye to my 18yo Rose in the next week or two, and I’m dreading it. She has a tumor in her jaw and for now she’s in good spirits, but eating is getting hard.
Such small furry bodies, and they leave giant holes in our hearts and lives when they go. Vale Binx, you were well loved 
and I know you knew it and loved in return.
My cat is eighteen and has a heart murmur. But he still gets around and I am working on different ways to give him his pill.
More of our sweet Binx in his prime.
He was an officially registered emotional support cat, and the younger Kestra is a “prescribed supplement”.
My mantra for grieving cats:
I shall pat
The living cat.
I always have to have more than one. I’m glad that you have Kestra.
When they’re ill and suffering, you have to be strong to be kind. Our last (and he will be our last) dachshund had a lot of health issues, and we could see he was struggling. It helped us to know he wouldn’t be suffering any more.
You’ll cry eventually. I’ve often had delayed tears for some reason.
Ah, a twinge in my heart! Gray kitties are the absolute best – as you know! 
Sorry to hear that.
Ours are 16 and 18. Seem to be doing OK. We give them Ipakatin supplements, which they eat up quite happily; can’t say how much good it does though.
Renal problems are very common in older cats, though there is some research that suggests that better treatments might be available in future.
Kestra is being extra snuggly today. She stretched out on the couch and let me rub her belly for a long time.
It’s so hard to lose a beloved pet. 13 is a long life but not long enough.
My condolences to you and your family.
I’m sorry to hear about Binx. I know how that feels, we’re coming up on six months since we had to have Estelle euthanized. Out of the five cats we had at the time, she was “my” cat. She didn’t really care about anyone else.
As to why you haven’t cried, you may be a bit like me, it takes some time for events to sink in. I was numb at the time, but as it sunk in emotionally that there was no more Estelle hanging out to watch my every move I cried plenty.
And yeah, having other cats to comfort you does help out. Lou has kind of stepped into Estelle’s shoes. He doesn’t follow me around as much as she did, but if he is in the mood for petting or someone to sleep next to, he seeks me out.
Kestra knows Binx is gone. She wants extra connection with those of her clowder who are still there.
I’m so sorry! That’s so hard. Our furbabies just don’t live long enough!
Binx had love and comfort all his life and you were with him at the end. You gave him the best possible life. Hugs.
Our Creamsickle died of sudden kidney failure when she was only six. We gave her subcutaneous fluids and tried to heal her, but it was too late. Our late vet would not let us attend the euthanasia during office hours, and we couldn’t let her linger until closing time so we had to leave her. She was a sweet kitty, and the people at the vet’s office loved her. She was in loving hands. But I still feel guilty because I wasn’t there for her at the end. I’m sorry Binx is gone. But I’m glad that you could be there with him.
I’m so sorry. It’s so hard to do but I’ve looked at it as giving them one last gift by easing their passing.
I lost one of my cats to kidney failure during COVID lockdown. My vet snuck me in the back door of the office so I could be with my boy at the end. They weren’t normally letting people into the office at that time but they made an exception for me and I’m forever grateful. I’m glad you could be with Binx.
So sorry.
What you did is hard, but better than suffering.
Binx lived with Ellie in Nevada about 10 years before the two of them and Kestra came to live with us here in Nevada.
Ellie just shared with us a funny story and picture from his Nevada days.
She bought an expensive cat tree for him.
https://imgur.com/gallery/DTEHaIJ
And yep.
He sat in the box and never did use the cat tree.
It’s never easy to let them go.
I’m very sorry for your loss.
A very lovely person named Rainbow Bridge Raina put together a video for us welcoming Binx to the Rainbow Bridge. Finally, I cried.
