Hmmm. I hope this thread doesn’t get locked or deleted (that would be pretty pathetic if it did) but I’m moving out of my apartment for a week.
As some of you know I used to be mentally ill. I’m also genetically prone to depression. In dec of 2000 I realized I was mentally ill and spent the next year seriously suicidal (most of 2001). I wrote several suicide notes in spring of 2001 and decided to keep them in a ziploc bag that I just found in my closet.
Its like someone else wrote them, I can’t even being to relate to the type of mindset or mentality that would cause me to write those things. I even feel a little uncomfortable saying it was me who wrote them. I know I wrote them, its just that due to various things I’ve changed so much over the last few years that I really can’t even being to relate to these things.
In case anyone wonders here is what happened. I used to be delusionally mentally ill from dec 1996 to dec 2000. When I realized I was mentally Ill I became very suicidal. In fall of 2001 I signed up for college, moved out of my hometown in late 2002 (that was a big improvement for me) changed majors in dec of 2003 and have been doing my new major ever since. The biggest turnaround in my mood came in early 2004 when I realized that my depression was keeping me down so I started practicing nutritional therapy for depression (methyl donors, phenylalanine, essential fatty acids, b vitamins, etc). That made massive improvements, so did adding regular exercise, meditation and cognitive reframing tools to my outlook on life. I’m not interested in sympathy or anything, I just felt the urge to post it and what better place to talk about this than the same message board filled with total strangers that I make fart jokes on.
Does anyone else have stories of massive mental changes for the better? I know I can’t be the only person with a story like this