So I’ve been having severe stomach pain and nausea for about a month now. This seemed to be an exacerbation of a chronic problem I’d already been having for years. I went to the doctor, she ordered an ultrasound which was scheduled for this Friday, and I was waiting anxiously. Slowly getting worse. Over the last week in addition to extreme pain I’ve been unable to eat anything without immediately getting sick. It was getting to the point where one or two bites would finish me. Last night after work the pain hit a peak on the commuter train home. I was already going on less than 3 hours of sleep the night before, so not feeling spectacular. But at this point the pain was so bad I was worried something was about to rupture inside me. So my poor husband took me straight to ER from the train station.
I was in excruciating pain (laying there quietly with tears streaming down my face) for about another two hours and then they hooked me up with an IV and some morphine, in which point I was immediately pleased to be alive. My husband was allowed to come back and sit with me. We decided not to wait on the ultrasound, and when the ultrasound came up negative we went for a CAT scan. This took 4 hours of prep time and involved drinking some weird stuff and then having dye injected intravenously. So at that point we’re pushing 48 hours with almost no sleep, no food since 2pm, we have only one book between my husband and I, and rather than having a room we were consigned to a gurney in the hallway. For 10 hours.
The CAT scan turned up nothing, which was both a relief and a frustration. At that point I was just lying there waiting for the doctor to come up and tell me I had 3-6 months to live due to inoperable stomach cancer. But no, nothing life threatening is happening–no stomach cancer, kidney disease, gall bladder infection, etc. Which also raises the question, ‘‘WTF? Why am I in excruciating pain and can’t eat and all this?’’ They said I would need to see a specialist because it’s clear something is happening, they just didn’t have the tools on hand to figure out what.
So we got home at 6am, and sorry to say I didn’t feel terribly much better than when I arrived. I at least came home bearing a doctor’s note through Saturday and a prescription for Vicodin. I am supposed to go on vacation next week–we are supposed to leave for Michigan on Saturday and visit all of our friends and family. Now I’m not sure what is going to happen.
I tried to eat when I got home this morning, but it was nearly impossible. Instead I slept, now I finally managed to choke down some food. I’m probably going to need another few rounds of this eat a little/sleep a little routine before I feel anything remotely close to normal again. Thank God my husband is a student on break and can wait on me hand and foot.
On the one hand, being in the ER puts everything in perspective–I sat there listening to one guy puking his guts out, another guy arguing with his wife about whether or not he was dying (he had a tumor), and a lot of old people who were not having the time of their life and who had been there way longer than me. I also saw two newborn babies. I’m not normally into babies, but that was pretty cool to realize these two people had just been born.
Not only could I have been there for a more serious reason, I could also have been at a much more incompetent hospital (we have one back home that would stupify you with its level of incompetence and dangerous disregard for human life.) These people run a lovely, rather intimate little ER here in New Brunswick. ERs suck as a general rule, but I must say the staff was just sweet as can be. They did a good job distracting you with conversation and making sure everyone was comfortable. They even went around with a little drink/snack cart for the family members of patients. I’ve only been in the area for a few months but my impression is that New Jersey overall has an excellent health care system full of people who love their jobs.
Despite my gratitude in this regard, this is not my favorite day. Thanks for listening to my bitching. Happy New Year!
Sincerely,
Christy