Absolutely. I think I’ve finally come to terms with the fact that for me, personally, therapy and meds is the way to go right now. At a later point in time, when I’ve gotten myself in a good position financially, emotionally, educationally, and socially, that may need to be reevaluated, but right now, just trying to do what I’ve been doing isn’t working and I need to stop beating my head against the same brick wall.
For years I did take it as being inferior. I’d look at some people, my best friend would be a good example, who I judged to be as screwed up as I was, but still managed to do well in school, hold down a job, be responsible, and keep his life together, and I’d look at myself- failing classes, unable to keep a job, always broke. And I took the fact that I couldn’t keep it together as well as someone I assumed had it as bad as I did as further proof that I sucked at life.
I assumed he had it as bad as me, but I have no way of knowing that. Doing my own research recently I’ve come to learn that his subset of depression (a less common one) does not cause as much disruption in the activities of daily living. :smack: Well, that explains one thing right there. And through some discussions with my doctor, we suspect I’m actually bipolar, though depression is dominant and I only have hypomanic episodes. So that makes things a lot easier to understand, and hopefully that will also make it easier to treat.
I only wish I had been able to come to terms with this sooner- I’d have saved myself a lot of pain (and money!) if I had just accepted the fact I needed help instead of slogging through semester after semester, failing or dropping half of my classes.
Yes, it does. I’m hoping that therapy in addition to meds will help me get to the point where I’ve learned some better coping mechanisms, have stopped comparing myself to others, can laugh at myself, accept myself, just undo a lot of the negative patterns I picked up as a kid and emerge as a whole, unbroken adult. I’m seeing a therapist who right now seems a bit more concerned with practical things, he’s sort of on the CBT side of therapy, but there was someone I had several sessions with at the school’s counseling center I liked very much who was into the more traditional talk therapy, and I think I want to see both of them for a while. I’m hoping it helps.
Oh, and if a passing mod could edit the title, please, I’d appreciate it. I wrote the OP in a fit of goofiness and self-deprecation, I think the title would solicit more of the types of responses I’m looking for if it read something more along the lines of “Share your experiences with psychiatric treatment.”
And whatever happened to that online support group some poster or other was interested in starting? I could really use that right now.