I’m sure this will be very TL,DR so please feel free to ignore.
I have a lovely kitty: Schatzi.
Schatzi is 22 years old. He’s not sick in any way, he’s just really, really old.
One day he started yeowling and meowing in a very distressed way. I found him in the hallway and he was lying on his side having a seizure or a stroke or some other type of neurological event. My husband and I both went bananas with me calling the emergency vet to say we were on the way, hubby finding the cat carrier, etc. We got everything sorted and started looking for Schatzi and couldn’t find him. I was horrified thinking he had hidden somewhere and died. In fact he was over at his food dish having a snack. ??!!??
We scooped him up into his carrier and rushed him to the vet where he was examined - the vet said that she couldn’t find any obvious symptoms - his heart beat was strong, he was neurologically responsive, his hind end was a bit wasted but nothing unusual given his age. She advised that we could either leave him there for observation or bring him home and watch him there. She also advised that typically in that type of case the animal would likely die within 24 hours. Hubby and I decided to bring Schatzi home so he would be where he was comfortable, with his family and doggie friend, etc - he gets very agitated when he’s out of the home, crying if we even carry him into the hallway of our condo. We brought him home, got his fluffiest kitty bed sorted, put him there and waited. And waited. And waited. That was three years ago.
Huh, so apparently this was going to be a one time event. Hubby and I went through the house and senior-kitty proofed it. We got rid of the tall cat tree incase Schatzi missed a jump and hurt himself. We rearranged the living room furniture so the sofa would be in front of a window so Schatzi could still sit in his kitty bed and look out. We got a small step for the master bedroom so Schatzi could get in our bed without too much difficulty, and things progressed.
About 3 months after the first event it happened again. This time we were slightly less panicked; however, we called the vet and described things as they were happening. Again, he fell on his side, and had a seizure type thing. Panted for a moment or two and went and had a snack. The vet told us to keep an eye on him, keep him comfortable and he would most likely die over night.
Well, he didn’t die and he hasn’t had another episode in 2.5 years. He’s had his regular checkups and every time he’s given a clean bill of health for a geriatric cat.
Recently, he’s been having some trouble with his hind end. Specifically, he will sometimes lose control of his back legs and sit down hard on his butt. He always masks this by licking his butt hole (aren’t cats the best? They totally wipe out and instantly start licking something to make it look like they did it on purpose). So, the first time this happen hubby and I went into banana mode, called the emergency vet (they know us by now) grabbed the kitty carrier, etc. While we were doing this Schatzi got up and got in bed. Walked away, leapt up on our bed and started cleaning his paw. Huh. So, as per the vet I gave him a pat down, felt his legs, butt, etc. Schatzi was in no distress/pain or discomfort. Just sitting there cleaning his paw. Again, the vet said keep an eye on him, if he appears to be in any discomfort or distress, bring him in. Great, will do. And then nothing happened until about 2 weeks later when the same back leg weakness happened. Again - there was no discomfort, no meowing or yeowling, he just sits on his butt for a minute or two, and then gets up and walks away.
So here we are. We have a 22 year old cat that sits on his butt sometimes. It’s important to note that generally Schatzi has no trouble at all. He has excellent mobility, a very good appetite, a good friend in the dog whom he plays with and cuddles up beside at night to sleep. It is now moth time of year around these parts and he hunts them. I woke up at about 5 AM a few days ago and Schatzi was doing a weird kitty growl thing. I looked up and there was a huge moth fluttering around behind the drapes in the bedroom. Schatzi leapt up, swatted the moth down to the ground, pounced on it, wacked it, and stuffed it in his mouth and crunched the thing to death and then swallowed. :eek::eek: He was like a tiny little lion!
Now, I’m not a kitty, but when determining kitty quality of life, I think having an absurd assortment of fluffy kitty beds, as much kitty snack as I want, kitty treats, moths to hunt, catch and eat, and a good doggie friend to cuddle up to at night, as well as a kitty mom and dad who dote on you, that seems worth occasionally sitting in an awkward position for a minute or two.
However, hubby and I both feel like we have an axe hanging over our heads. Well, we KNOW we have an axe hanging over our heads - we have a 22 year old cat. It’s the human version of being 116. 116 years old. That’s REALLY old. That’s what the vets always say - he’s not sick - he’s just old. Really, really old. However, they also comment how good he looks, and what good shape his in, etc.
So here we sit. Every time I hear a weird meow I rush over generally to find Schatzi lost in the hallway. So I turn him around and point him towards the bedroom and he’s fine. When we hear a thump we wonder if he’s hunting a moth and just caught it, or if he’s having another seizure which will be the last one. We cuddle him, and spend time with him, and enjoy him as much as we can, but it’s still a drag because we KNOW his days are numbered.
Anyhow, I know in the grand scheme of things a very old kitty is not a huge deal. We’re very lucky to have been able to enjoy him as long as we have. It’s just the feeling of inevitability is getting bigger with each passing day and we’re sad.
If you actually made it this far - :eek::eek::eek:well thanks for reading.