Absolutely, write it out here. I find it really does help take some of the load off to bitch and moan to internet strangers - I get it out of my system, I can sometime organize my thoughts a bit and not feel so frazzled, and if the people reading the board don’t want to hear it, they can scroll on by.
But some of us really do worry about you, and want to know how it’s going, good OR bad. You don’t know me at all, but I’ve been reading your posts and hoping something turns up for you soon. But I’ll keep reading even if you don’t post sunshine and unicorns things, and I’ll be sending good luck vibes your way.
tl;dr version: keep posting, it’s ok.
SD, please keep posting, good or bad. You can vent with us. Many of us have dealth with similar experiences before. It sometimes feels that you are never going to come out the other end into goodness but it does happen.
Keep putting one foot in front of the other and know we are cheering you on.
Catholic Social Services. (if you still need help). I’m not catholic either, and I’m not sure how it works nowadays but a few decades ago, I was in a bad way, and they’ve got lots of free assistance. For me, it was mostly free food and some free business clothes so I could go to job interviews.
