I guess I’d better make the most of my two days. Anyone want to throw me a Post Party? Well, it’s just that for many years, I’ve been in school and now all of a sudden it’s my last year. I feel really depressed, like everything’s coming to an end. I still have my senior year to go, obviously, but after that, I’ll be in college.
And I’m really, really freaked out. It’s kind of hard to think of going off to college, and being an adult, and all that. I still haven’t fully accepted it. And the worst part is that everyone else seems so okay with it all. All my classmates seem bent on not only going off to college, but going somewhere far, far away. I want to go and all that, but most of the time I’m torn about it. That is, it scares me. And when everyone else appears so blase, that feels odd.
Plus I don’t even feel like a senior. I still feel so young. Does everyone feel older, or does it take a while for that to really sink in? Because intellectually, I feel changed, but in many ways emotionally I feel even more vulnerable…
Anyway thanks for reading my post. Just two more days…
Yeah, well, you’ll change your mind about wanting to leave school in the spring. Last year at this time, I was feeling the same as you. But by March, I wanted to get the hell out of there.
Everyone goes through the same thing before any ‘milestone’ in life. Before I got married, all I could think was:* ‘I can’t believe I’m getting married. Me! I’ll be an old, married woman! Woman? Me, a woman? NO…I’m too young to be a woman, I’m still just a girl! A married girl. Arg…’*
Enjoy your time as a senior. Before you know it, you’ll be graduating. And then you’ll think ‘I can’t believe I’m graduating!’ and then you’ll be off to college and you’ll think ‘I can’t believe I’m in college’ and then…
You get my point.
It never ends, and you’re never ‘ready’ for it. But that’s life.
And, you’ll be fine.
I think that really takes quite a while to sink in for most people. I’m a sophomore in college, and I don’t feel “grown up.” To tell the truth, I’m not really sure what “grown up” is supposed to feel like. I live off campus, so I’ve gotten used to managing chores, budgets, etc. along with school work; however, even with this added responsibility, I just don’t feel like an adult.
As for leaving high school–I had completely different feelings about that than you’re having. I couldn’t wait to leave; in fact, I absolutely hated high school–the students were stuck up (and rather stupid), the teachers didn’t teach, and the administration was lousy. I haven’t bothered to go back since I graduated.
I wish you luck in your senior year–especially in college hunting.
gets out the streamers, cake, and candles for Zoggie
College is different. It’s bigger. There are more choices. But even though everyone seems so cool, calm, and collected, they’re very likely just as scared as you are about it. And as for feeling older, sometimes you don’t even notice when you’re feeling older at all, and sometimes you do. Regardless, you’re getting older
Also, as a few side notes, remember that you have options in going to college. You don’t necessarily even have to leave home (depending on your individual situation) to go to college. (I don’t know if this applies to anyone who may read this, but when I was looking at colleges, I was just so certain that going to college meant that I had to go to some college far enough away so that I’d have to move somewhere totally alien on my own. In retrospect, I myself probably should have commuted to the nearby community college for a year or two before transferring to a distant university.) As for feeling like an adult, I still don’t feel like an adult, and I just finished college a few months back.
Good luck on your senior year! Make the best of it!
Aw, thanks you guys. I guess it just takes awhile for it to sink in. It’s not so much that I really love my high school, it’s just that it’s familiar and all that. It gets really annoying sometimes, and I know a lot of the colleges on my list are really nice, cool places, but you do get a little attached.
Well, it’s just that for many years, I’ve been in school and now all of a sudden it’s my last year. I feel really depressed, like everything’s coming to an end. I still have my senior year to go, obviously, but after that, I’ll be in college.