I’ve been on the SDMB for years. I don’t post much, mostly lurk.
Last night my wife left her email open. Things have been so good between us for the past month, it’s like we’ve reconnected after a couple months of some (what I thought) was moderate disconnect. I was actually looking to see if she’d emailed any of her friends to say good things about me ( I tend to be insecure) and found exactly the opposite.
The affair was with an out of town guy that she knows from college and probably got pretty intense from the looks of the emails. They had sex on 3 different occasions between February and May 9. She swears it’s over as of May 20 and emails and phone records back that up.
We have 2 children. She is a great mom. We’ll have been married for 10 years in October.
I’m not going to leave her. That’s not in the cards, and I don’t want to punish her. I just want to forget that this ever happened, but I can’t. The movie in my head won’t stop. It’s like that scene out of High Fidelity where Cusack is rolling around the bed, imagination running wild.
I can’t talk to anybody. I’m too embarrassed to talk to my friends and my family would freak out. I want to talk to her, but I don’t believe her. She’s truly sorry. I’m sure of that.
Has anyone else made it through this? I’m sure people have. How?